Release

I'm Not Beautiful

I'm not beautiful in anyone's eyes.

I have a big nose, and too wide of eyes
with thick eyebrows
and messy hair that never cooperates

I have acne on my back
because my hormones are all out of whack
causing me shit all over

My hands aren't pretty
my nails are bitten down so far
and my cuticles too, because of my fucking anxiety

And my breasts aren't big or small
they're just normal, but not in a good way
sitting on my chest, useless fucking lumps

And my stomach isn't as flat as it should be
but not fat either
just slight lovehandles

and my ass isn't plump
but it isn't flat either
my whole body is too normal

My thighs have always been muscular
not leaving a thigh gap
and my hip bone juts out just a little on the side

My toenails look like crap
thanks to my vitamin deficiencies
I have useless white shit on my nails

And I'm not beautiful.
I'll never be beautiful.
That's not me.

But in your eyes, I'm beautiful.
And you're the first one to say so.
Most people just call me pretty, sexy, never beautiful.

So even though I'm not,
you believe I am
and that makes me feel

beautiful.