rants

rant 53

I hate being told what to do

like it's a genuine problem. like if I'm about to get up out of bed but then my dad tells me to a second later I will quite literally hold off getting out of my room for as long as I can

if my teachers telling me to take my headphones off while I'm taking them off I'll keep them on

I'm so stubborn it's a real fucking issue and I probably got it from my brother

it's not even a funny little red flag anymore bc I've lost friends over it

I can't forgive ppl after they do something to me bc i refuse to change and I dont know how to stop getting mad whenever someone gives me a set of instructions

whenever I am given a tutorial I do it a different way

it's not something I am trying to glorify. it's not something cool. its something that sets me back in society bc to cooperate is to listen and im shit at listening

I can't change it

idk what's wrong with me like especially when I got therapy the fact they were trying to get me to be better made me want to get as worse as humanly possible