thinking of how big the world is has officially ruined my mental state. every time I'm having fun I think of the fact that someone died at the same time I was laughing and suddenly nothings funny
I realize that every object in my room has most likely been used to off someone before since the world is so fucking big i can't even begin to really fathom it
I don't know how to start enjoying things again
I know that whether I was laughing or not in the moment that person died it wouldn't have changed the outcome, I know that just because an item was used in a certain way shouldn't taint my enjoyment because in the end I'm practically an atom in this whole wide universe and I shouldn't be thinking of unchangeable shit like that but I just can't help it
I hate how big the world is and saying that sounds so stupid but honestly I fucking hate it. everything I've thought before, high chance someone else has. nothing I do could possibly be original
I can't make a remote change in the world. me deciding to pick up trash from the floor on the way home won't pause climate change because it's all inevitable and out my hands
I can't do anything
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Randomdisclaimer: sensitive topics if u want js me ranting my heart out and raging then only read until about rant 52 bc after that its vents