Say My Name [BoyXBoy/ MXM]

Chapter 18. Jaeson

His lips are soft and delicate. If I bite even just a little, I'm afraid it will bleed out. Lillian isn't kissing me back but he's letting me kiss him however I want.

His eyes are closed and he doesn't look like he hates it. He isn't struggling when I lick his now red lips and let out a cute whimper instead.

I take his lips fully again because he's so sweet and addicting. I have had lots of kisses but I never knew a kiss could taste this good.

I don't know where the sudden confidence to kiss him come from, but impulse took over me and I don't regret it one bit.

He taste so good, I want to keep doing this. Kissing him, hoping he doesn't hate it.

I lean back when Lillian pushes me a little as he gasps for breath and looks at me.

I stare at him looking all flushed, lips plumped red and bruised. Eyes unfocused and confused.

F*ck, he's making me go insane.

He's so beautiful.

I wish I never kissed him at all because I want to kiss him again but he's heaving and tired.

'you're just confused. Try kissing him once and then, boom! rainbow~'

Rainbow indeed because f*ck, I'm more confused than ever.

I like having sex with women and I don't wanna let my imagination get there with Lillian. God knows how much he'd hate me after this.

"..."

"..."

"Goodnight," I blurt out of nowhere and quickly get out of the room.

F*ck.

I really am a coward.

What do I do?

He probably thinks I'm weirdo now.

I go towards the other wing and get to Nick's room. He's already here as I enter.

"Bro, know how to knock?"

I sit on the his mattress and lie back down.

"The hell? Get out or make yourself one. I'm tired, give me back my bed."

"I just kissed Lillian."

He looks at me and smirks, "Figured. Would have been disappointed if you didn't."

"What if he thinks I'm an old creep who's trying to groom him or some shit?"

"Why are you acting like you're some forty year old?"

"God Nick, I don't want to mess it up with him. Did I mess it up?"

I know I'm panicking but I can't help it.

"No you didn't, and stop freaking out."

I sigh and sit back straight and look at him, "I know you asked him that question earlier for me."

He smirks again, "So why are you still stressed? The kid clearly looked at you and decided getting married early to someone he likes isn't that bad."

I frown at him, "He didn't look at me."

"Oh, he so did."

"If he likes me back, he would have kissed me back just now. He didn't."

"He must have been surprised, give him time."

I sigh and bite my lips, not knowing what to do.

"So like, you rushed out here after kissing him? Coward much?"