sturniolo/nate imagines

⚠️ED⚠️ tell me-Nate

                               Y/N POV

Ever since I was little, I have always been overweight. It never really bothered me at first. But then my friends started dating. I never got into it before, but I decided that I wanted to talk to boys. which I thought required me to be pretty to lose weight. I didn't want to work out, I didn't know how.
So the only other solution was to starve. At first, I started skipping meals, but it seemed to work. So I continued, I only ate when I needed to. No one really noticed. Well, I'm sure they did, but they didn't care.
I lost almost a hundred pounds, I was proud of myself. At 16, I was finally happy with my body. Some people thought I was underweight, but I thought there was no such thing. I saw nothing wrong with it. When I needed to I ate. But if I didn't need to I didn't.
At times I gained weight, in my eyes that is the worst thing that could happen. So I  stopped eating for a while, when I was happy with my body I ate again.
Sometimes it was a week before I was happy, sometimes it was months.

When I was 19, I met nate. After a while we started dating. He wasn't my first boyfriend, but he was the first I had loved. With him I didn't feel like I needed to keep up with my weight. I still didn't eat some weeks, I did my best to keep it from Nate. I would sent him pictures of me with food, but not eat it. I would say "I'm not hungry," or "I ate earlier," Wich was a lie, but I didn't want to inconvenience him with something so unimportant.

I am now 21, my birthday was last week. I'm looking through videos and pictures from my party. I look huge.
I look in the mirror. I have really let myself go. How is nate with me? When was the last time I starved? It's been close to a year since the last time I stopped eating. How could I let this happen?
How much do I weigh? I stepped on the scale. 120. Oh my god. What is wrong with me?
I walked back to my room, Nate was laying on my bed.
"What took you so long." He sighed, pulling me to him. I moved out of his grasp, I don't want him to feel my body. He looked at me confused. "What's wrong?" I moved to the door.
"We should go for a drive." I said, grabbing my keys.
"Ok?" He said, following me out the door.
I don't want to go for a drive. But I don't know an excuse. We got to the car and we started driving.
"Where are we going?" He asked.
"I don't know. Where do you want to go?" I asked back.
"Wanna get food?" My heart sank, I can't eat.
"I'm not really hungry."
We decided to go to Walmart. Because I love Walmart.

(Time skip)

I haven't eaten in about 4 weeks. I was tired and weak, like always. But I've only lost 20 pounds, that's not enough. I still look huge. Nate hasn't noticed, or so I thought.
"Love, can I talk to you?" He asked, sitting next to me on the couch.
"Yeah, what's up?" He sighed, and grabbed my hands.
"I've just noticed that I haven't seen you eat in a while." I took my hands from his.
"I just want to make sure you're OK. It looks like you've been losing weight." I looked at the floor.
"I'm fine." I said sternly.
"You don't look fine. You have no energy, and your tiny. I mean you've always been small, but it seems unhealthy." I looked at him, angry.
"I said I'm fine. Leave it alone." I stood.
"Not eating isn't fine." He said, following me to my room.
"Why are you accusing me of not eating!" I yelled at him.
"Then let's go get food." He said, I sighed, sitting on my bed.
"I'm not hungry." He lifted my head to look at him.
"Let me help you."
"I don't need help!"
"I don't even remember the last time I saw you eat." I sighed. He's not gonna let it go.
"I stop eating sometimes. So what."
"Love, that's not healthy. You could die." I rolled my eyes.
"I'm not gonna die. I control it. It's fine."
"You can't control it forever. You-"
"Stop! I'm fine!"
We continued arguing. Why can't he leave it alone. It's fine. He should be happy. Why can't he just support me?
After a while of going back and forth I was done. If he can't support me, I don't need him on my life.
"Get out! We're done!" I yelled, pointing at the door.
"You don't want that." He said, looking at me in disbelief.
"Yes I do! I don't need you if you can't accept that this is a part of me!" He came closer, holding my face in his hand.
"Please don't. I just want to help. Please." He begged. I backed away.
"Please go." I said. A tear rolled down his cheek as he left.
I sat on my bed. What did I do? I need him. I don't want to break up.
I ruined everything.

After thinking for hours, I blocked Nate on everything. He doesn't need me messing up his life. He'll be better without me.

(Time skip)

It's been 2 weeks since I broke up with Nate. I'm miserable. I think it was the worst mistake of my life. I still haven't eaten. I don't want to.
Maybe I should call him. Maybe he'll take me back. I decided to unblock him. See if he texted me. I looked at his messages.

                             Nate❤️

Y/N
Please talk to me
Are you ok
Have you eaten
Please eat
I love you
Don't shut me out. Let me help
Love, please
Don't do this
Please talk to me please

A tear rolled down my cheek as I read the rest of his texts. He cares. I miss him so much I have to see him.

                                Nate❤️

Can you come over

I waited for a reply. I started to feel a bit dizzy, so I got up to get some water. I made it about half way before it all went black.

                            Nate POV

I was laying in my bed. That's all I can do. I miss Y/N, and I'm worried about her. My friends try to get me to go out. But I feel empty with out her. She won't even reply to my texts. I just want to help. She was so small. She needs to eat. My thinking was interrupted by my phone buzzing. I sighed, thinking it was my friends again. I glanced at my phone, sitting up when I saw her name. My face lit up as I read her text. I jumped out of bed and ran to the car.
I got there as quickly as I could. I unlocked the door and walked in.
"Y/N" I called through the house. I heard no reply and continued walking. I halted my movements as I saw Y/N laying on the floor not moving. I ran to her keeling  and lightly shaking her.
"Wake up, please" I pleaded. She remained still. I picked her up bridal style. She was so light, i could practically feel her bones. I took her to her room and carefully layed her down.

Y/N POV                               

I woke up and saw Nate next to me. I sat up and he grabbed my hand.
"Don't scare me like that." He said pulling me into a hug.
"What happened?" I asked, pulling away.
"You need to eat, please." He said. I sighed. I need to, I know. I don't think I've ever been this skinny, but I still feel fat. I nodded at him. He kissed my head before walking out. He came back with Goldfish, my favorite. I stared at them, I can't, I'll gain weight.
"Please," Nate begged. I slowly ate them. Nate cheering me on every bite.
When I was done, we cuddled.
"Will you take me back?" I asked looking up at him.
"Of course, love" He said placing a kiss to my lips. We talked until we fell asleep. I'm glad he knew about this part of me.