In love with my best friend

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Coles pov

I don't think I've ever been this nervous in my entire life and to think all I'm doing is meeting up with the person I've known my whole life! I got out of bed and got dressed and drove over to the park and waited for her to arrive. The longer I sat there the more I thought about past memories of being here with Lauren when we were growing up and I couldn't help but want to have new memories here bringing our son here. I also thought about how she may not show up at all after all cause more and more time keeps passing by. I checked my phone and didn't see anything from her so I was going to call her but she ended up showing up and god I didn't think it was possible for her to be any more beautiful but I was wrong. She looked so scared she looked at me shyly and damn near whispered hello to me.
C- you don't need to be scared Lauren
L- we'll see
C- why would you think that
L- considering what happened the last time I saw you considering I've been keeping a huge secret from you considering the guys have told me about you being mad and everything
C- ok I get that but I'm good right now right now I just want you to explain why
L- I didn't want to add more to your plate I didn't want to add on stress or I didn't want to cause strife with you and your parents in case you decided to go on your own path due to the curveball there
C- so instead you just decided to rip my heart in half
L- well if it makes you feel better I did the same to my heart as well cole you have no idea how hard it was to say no or to move
C- do you honestly still love me
L- of course I do I think about you everyday I miss you more than you know
C- so then it's safe to say you haven't been with anyone while we've been apart
L- correct
C- thank goodness
L- what about you
C- I haven't been with anyone either cause I still love you baby I still want to marry you someday I want to be able to call you mine again I want to be in my sons life
Before she could say anything I leaned in and kissed her and she kissed me back as we both ended up crying in the middle of the kiss. When we pulled apart we just held on to the other not saying a word but we both knew what the other was thinking because the connection is always there.
L- can I ask you something
C- of course
L- how did you find out about our son
C- Brooke saw him at the store
L- wait you still talk to her
C- no not exactly I mean she has reached out to me a couple times trying to get back with me but I of course said no every time and she sent me the picture but I didn't respond instead I reached out to Dalton about it
L- ookk
C- trust me I have no intention on talking to her being in her life again or anything
L- I believe you don't worry
C- good now can I ask you something
L- hmm
C- when can I meet our son
L- right now if you want the guys are all watching him this way we could talk
C- ok but I have another question before that
L- haha what's the other question
C- will you be mine again I need you baby I need the love of my life back and well if we're being honest I need my dirty little slut back as well
She giggled and I could tell she was trying to hide it and trying to act like those little words didn't affect her but I know they did
L- yes I'll be yours again
C- no more running
L- no more running
C- even if I put another baby in here no running instead you tell me got it
L- got it
I picked her up and made her straddle me and she just looked at my shyly which I gotta admit only made me hard so I wrapped my hand around her throat and I kissed her and it wasn't long til she was whimpering into the kiss. I took her to my car and had my way with her and then we calmed down we drove back to her house and before we walked inside I stopped
L- are you ok
C- I'm nervous
L- don't be he'll love you almost as much as I do
C- haha ok
I took a deep breath and walked inside with her and saw the guys were all sitting around Brandon playing with him and I felt a pang of jealousy. Like yes I'm about to meet Brandon and I'll have moments like this from this moment on for the rest of my life but the fact they got the chance first I couldn't help but be jealous and Lauren took notice and I could tell she was feeling guilty by it so I kissed the back of her hand in reassurance and she was better from it and so was I .
Dal- mommy's home buddy
Brandon made little happy noises and made grabby hands for her which I thought was adorable! She picked him up and held him close to her then walked over to me
L- do you want to hold him
C- yes
She carefully passed him to me and I stood there talking to him saying I was his daddy and I would be here for him from the moment forward. For the rest of the day he was in my arms I was the one feeding him changing him and playing with him or simply holding him while he slept. I know she had her reasons to keep him from me and he's still young so I haven't missed any key moments but it still hurts that I couldn't be here from the beginning.