new romantics - taylor swift and travis kelce

I don't wanna miss you like this

-Taylors Pov- 

Saying goodbye is hard. Especially when it will be a few weeks until we get to see one another again in person. Travis only had time off to stay two days in Argentina with us, but I'm glad he made the time to come even for a short period of time.

I lay cuddled against his side on the king size bed of my hotel room. It's one of those suites with two bedrooms and a living room, so Thea is in one of the other rooms doing her own thing. I'm soaking up the last moments with Travis before he has to leave.

"wish I didn't have to leave soon" he says and looks at his watch to make sure we aren't running out of time. I know it's soon time for him to leave. Part of me, the needy part I try to suppress, want to beg him to stay. But I know it's selfish and I know he can't. he has responsibilities that doesn't include me, a whole team that counts on him, a whole fanbase.

Even though I know this is how it's going to be in our relationship I still hate this part. We are both busy with successful careers, which makes goodbyes frequent for us. Sometimes we will only get a day, even just a few hours, to us selves before it's time to go again. We both knew this when we decided to enter a relationship, but that doesn't mean it doesn't still suck. I wish I could put him in my suitcase and always have him close, but I can't.

"I wish you didn't have to leave either" I mumble against his chest. I don't want to cry, but I can tell I'm on the verge of tears. Why I don't really know, it's not like we haven't been here before, but it still feels heavy regardless.

"it's only a few weeks, and then we will be together again. You'll go to London and then I'll see you when you get back to me okay?" he kisses the top of my head. We have everything planned, everything mapped out. I wish I could fly directly from the last Latin America tour date to Kansas city, but I've committed to attend Beyonce's premiere in London. She attended mine so it's only fair I return the favor. Thankfully Blake is coming with me to London, I don't have to face the city on my own.

Even talking about going to London makes my insides turn and I want to throw up. It's funny how the city I felt most at home in only last year is now the last place I want to go. Everything has turned upside down and I don't call that place my home anymore after years there. It's also the city he is in, and I don't want to see him. Hopefully he is out of the country shooting some movie, leaving me free from any chance of running into him. I can handle two days there, right?

"I've got to go now baby" Travis sigh and tighten his arms around me. neither one of us want to let go, neither one of us want him to leave, but we know it needs to happen. He has a plane to catch, and I have a show to start getting ready for. He only got to see one night of the tour, but it still meant a lot to me that he came. Especially since he was there to take care of Thea for her first concert. Having him there with her made me more comfortable with the whole thing.

"Travis. I made something for you" Thea comes skipping into the room as we finally manage to pull ourselves out of bed. She holds up a drawing of them at the concert last night, at least that's what I think it's supposed to be. You mostly need to play guessing games when it comes to kids' drawings. But there is a man and a little girl holding hands, so it doesn't take a genius to figure out it's the two of them.

"Wow, thank you, Thea. I'll hang it on my fridge when I get home" he kisses the top of her head, and she wraps her arms around his legs. "I don't want you to go anywhere" she grumbles, and Travis picks her up. "I know princess. I don't want to leave either, but I have to go play football. We will be back together soon though, promise you."

"do you pinky promise?" she pouts and holds out her little finger for him to link his with. "I pinky promise that I will see you when you get back from London" he makes a serious expression and links his finger with hers. His hand is so much bigger than hers, it looks adorable.

"I still don't like you leaving" she grumbles and Travis chuckles "that's okay. None of us like it. we just gotta deal with its princess" I love it when he calls her that, his princess.

Thea runs off and I get to say my final goodbye to Travis for now. "it's only goodbye for now Taylor, it's not forever" he says but it sure feels like it. I don't know why it feels heavier today than before, maybe because I know I will need to face London before I see him again.

"I know" I sigh and lean into his embrace. His arms around me cage me inn in the best way. It's my safe place, the place I know I can come to and everything else slips away. He would never let anyone hurt me, when I'm in his arms no one will even get close.

"I love you," he says as he cups my face and looks straight into my eyes. I allow myself to get a little lost in his eyes, only for a moment. "I love you too. so much" I say, and our lips press together in a final lingering kiss.

**

I'm at the stadium a couple of hours before the show. I'm always early so I can have a soundcheck before the crowd file into the stadium. There is a lot of downtime between Soundcheck and the show, but I've found ways to make it pass quickly. Today I have something particular to pass the time with Grammy nominations.

Tree will get the call any minute now with news about how midnights are doing. You're never guaranteed a nomination, thinking you are is naïve. Even though you have won before you're never guaranteed to get nominated, or especially win, again. It's all about what the academy is looking for in that particular award season, and what competition you're up against. The Grammys aren't about sales or charts, it's about what the Recording Academy thinks is the best thing out there during the last Recording Academy year. The year for them doesn't follow the calendar, it rather ends and starts somewhere in August or September. That means that anything released between the particular date last year and this year is up for the awards this year. We call it "the Grammy year".

Tree's phone goes off and I sit in silence as I wait for the news. It could go either way. I could get plenty of nominations as I did with Folklore, fearless, and 1989, or I could get hardly anything like Reputation, lover, and evermore.

The anticipation is killing me, but I wait patiently for Tree to get the rundown. "okay, good. that's good. I'll tell her. Thanks" she says to whoever from her team called her with the list.

She turns to me and smiles, "You have six nominations" She beams, and I can't help but join her before she goes into what I'm nominated for. "karma feat Ice Spice is nominated for best pop/duo performance. The album is nominated for pop vocal album. Anti-hero is nominated for best pop-solo performance. And then you're nominated for all the big three categories" She smiles "Congratulations"

It's huge, that's more than I could hope for. The big thing is getting nominated for "the big three" record, song, and album of the year. The stiffest award to get is of course album of the year. But for me, song of the year is special as I have never actually won that before. I've been nominated plenty of times for it, but it has never been my name that has been called. I'm not bitter though, I'm thankful for every award the academy has honored me with. It's something I would never take for granted.

"that's good. I like this. How are my chances?" I ask and she looks it up on her phone to go over my competition. The competition for song of the year is steep, big hits like "What Was I Made for?" and "Flowers" are nominated for the same award, so my chances there are a bit iffy. I don't dare to hope for anything, I don't want to get my hopes up and then get disappointed. Whether I walk out of that ballroom with an award or not will be unknown until the ceremony in February. The other nominees are just like me, waiting in anticipation for the day and seeing how it turns out for them. I have steep competition for everything I'm nominated for, so we will see what happens.

**

The show last night was amazing, I love the Argentinian crowd. Thea was in the audience again, this time with just my dad. She came to me after the show with a load of new friendship bracelets. She got plenty during the show she watched with Travis as well, so she is gaining a big collection already.

But now we are on my jet heading to the next destination. Rio in Brazil. I have two weekends ahead of me in Brazil, in Rio and Sao Paulo. I have never performed there before, so It will be interesting to see how that turns out. it's summer down here now, completely opposite to what I'm used to in the States, so it's really hot. I'm worried about what that will mean for the fans during the show. will the heat become a problem? according to the weather report, this will be the hottest show I've ever played, and it's starting to worry me.