EMMA’S POV
I was dragged all over New York City it seems, but I was having fun and I was actually feeling a lot better. Actually I was eating a lot more since we left.
“I like when you smile, it’s very pretty.”
I looked over at her across the rack at one of the maternity stores and let out a sigh.
“I feel free for once.”
“Well then I know what we will be doing from now on.”
“If Quin lets you out of his sight for once.”
She giggled as I laughed because she was totally in love.
“Feels like you’re on cloud nine ha?”
“Even higher…Ahhhh… he’s just so, just so…”
“Dreamy?”
She nodded and I went to the next rack.
“Is that how you felt when you and Xavier mated?”
I shook my head.
“I was scared out of my mind when I found out it was none other than my own teacher, but he just made me feel safe and I hadn’t felt like that in a long time. I guess I always did when I was with him.”
“And now?”
I looked down and shrugged.
“I mean it’s not all bad what you feel right?”
“But it’s not the same.”
“He told me what he did to you.”
I looked up at her as she made her way over to me.
“I pounded him for it too, but I can understand why he did it.”
“So would it be alright for Quin did that to you?”
“No of course not, I just said that I understood. You were trying to the baby.”
“Because it doesn’t deserve to be here. Look at me, do I look like someone who is just going to pop out a baby and be happy about it? I have anger and resentment and god knows that else I have in me. I’m afraid I’m going to hate it. A child doesn’t deserve that, it doesn’t deserve to be hated and uncared for. I have no feelings for this thing living inside of me and I would do anything to get it out now, but I can’t.”
“You’re just hurt and angry.”
Damb right I was angry! I lived my life by the book, always doing what was right, never getting into trouble, never making anyone upset or gave anyone a reason to hate or dislike me. I was always there for everyone, always put my feelings aside for others.
I let out a sigh and shook my head.
“You have no idea.”
“I know more than you think. I know about life being unfair. You have no idea how Trevor and you are so much alike. You were dealt a bad hand and so was he.”
“It’s not the same.”
She looked at me for a second before she took my hand and walked us out of the store and into the park across the street.
“Situations no, but feelings yes. You grew up the same way he was, but you had your wolf. Now imagine not having one while everyone around you did. You know running is like freedom to us, now think about not being able to do that.”
I looked at her and pointed at my stomach.
“I mean at ALL! He grew up with Alphas Em, the blood was running through his veins, he was meant to be great, but he couldn’t. He’s meant to protect those he loves and watches over and when you can’t, it hurts.”
