Sway 2

We dance for you

In through the nose out through the mouth,
Left foot, right foot, left foot, right foot, jab,
Uppercut, double jab, right foot, block, jab.

I danced around the ring delivering powerful blows to the lunch bag.

Over the past couple of weeks I had begun mentally instructing myself to do things in attempt to try and calm myself down.

Non existent.

That was the only thing to describe my so called "life" at the moment.

I had either lost or was on the verge of loosing everything that held some kind of relevance and meaning in my life.

I was loosing my capability to lead my men, I was loosing my self control, my sanity was hanging on by a fucking thread and to make things worse my dominance over my powers was near to nothing.

None of that even mattered to me, it was all a matter of time before all of that bullshit would slither out of grasp, there was only one thing on my mind.

Fuck I wanted her..... I craved her, the slightest  thought of her was enough to make me weak to my knees. I yearn to kiss her lips once more, to touch her skin, to seen her face.

But it was too late, I managed to fuck it up. Now I have to pay the price.

I'm no soppy bullocks but seeing her like that and watching her cry hurt like hell. But my god nothing will ever come close to how painful it was when she rejected me.

That was the first time in my life that I had ever felt....sad.

Loneliness was something I was very familiar with but when she walked away that day I had genuinely felt empty.... Would I ever admit those things? Ha! Over my dead body, my pride was way too big for that, but it didn't stop me from feeling this way.

My constant dwelling and daily self pitying had become awfully bitter and vexatious, yet I had to constantly remind musket there was no weakness to be shown outside of this room.

The moment I let my guard down trouble will somehow find its way to the surface.

Nearing footsteps from across the mansion could be heard a knocking reality back into me, Colt and the others would be here shortly, so I had to get my shit together.

Slipping on my expensive black blazer I remove myself from the room in supernatural speed making sure leave any unwanted shit behind.

I appeared in front of the boys in seconds, some squirmed at the sight of me and others bowed there heads out of respect.

Ever since my last encounter with Rogue, no one even dared to mention her name and to be honest I was glad. With my powers all over the place i had no idea how I would react, certain sounds and smells had began to made me gutter or lash out, so I was almost certain that a bad word spoken about my mate would result in bloodshed.

BLOOD!

Shit. I hadn't fed properly in a long time, i was getting stronger by the second but I know that even a drop of that copper scented liquid would  send me over the edge, I would be in full demon mode and there would be nothing to stop me... I couldn't risk it too many people would get hurt and the last thing I need is any shit from the elders or any other royals 

"Ivan? " Colt sheepishly asked causing me to snap out of my thoughts.

"What!" I snap back

All most instantly the huddle off vampires took a step back, I could see in their eyes that they were prepared to defend themselves.