Small bump~ **Sequel to IASH**

Chapter 1

Sandy's POV*

'Circles, we're going in circles.

Dizzy does it makes us

We know where it takes us

We've been before'

A month, that's how long it have been since me and Harry kissed goodbye in the rain. A month since I felt his sent, and since we've hugged. A month since we've talked!

This place, it's quite depressing! I can't say anything else! 

They checked everything, and I really mean everything, that I had in my bag when I came, making sure I didn't brought any sharp things, a rope, something that can be used as a rope, pills, not even papers!

It's strict, but they don't want anyone to kill themselves here, that would probably be really bad, not just for the people here, but for them too!

I've get to know one girl, Sarah! She's here for being anorexic and depressed. We started to talk the first day I came here, and we became friends really quick! 

She's a huge directioner, so she recognized me. I got to know that a few days ago though, not when we first meet. She didn't want me to think that she talked to me because of that, which I appreciated really much! It's sweet!

She's one of the thinnest here, and she's quite tall. Her hair is black and thin, a result from the anorexia, and she's pale. Her eyes doesn't glow when she smiles, and I can see that it's often a forced smile too! 

She reminds me of myself, really much! She's two years younger than me, or one, until I become 18. She's 16, and really sweet!

And, even if the place is depressing, it's still one of my best decisions to go here! I've slowly, but safe, started my way to recover. No, I'm not recovered yet, I still feel the urge to cut. But now, I pinch myself instead! 

They don't like that either, but it's better than cutting! I've talked to one lady who works here, Donna. She's really nice, and she helps me a lot! She also got contact with Harry, to tell him how I am. I'm not allowed to speak with him, not right now at least. But when I hear that she's talking to him, saying hello from me, I just feel sadness.  I miss him, like crazy!

When I got here, they gave me a dairy. Not to have like when you was small and wrote down that your friend got a new kitten or what you were going to eat, but to write down my feelings, how I am mentally. I'm not allowed to have it on my room, they keep it in a office along with the others.

It helps actually, to let that out, because I find it hard to talk to the people who works here. It's not that I don't like them, it's just that I don't know them.

And I went to a doctor, or they sent me there, when I came here. So I got all my diagnoses.

Melancholic depression, anorexia, paranoia, anxiety, bipolar, and suicidal thoughts. One problem never comes alone, you know.

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Harry's POV*

"Harry?"

"Harry?"

"Harry!" I felt a hand connect with  cheek, loosely.

"Ouch?" I groaned, and held my cheek with my hand. "What was that for?" I looked up at Louis, who had a concerned look on his face.

"You zoned out again while looking at Sands photo!" He sighed. 

"But I miss her..." I mumbled. 

"I know you do, but you can't just sit and stare on a picture all days! We got a interview in a few hours, pull yourself together, please?" He pleaded. I nodded, but still Ii had my gaze locked to the picture. She was laughing in it, and had a goofy hat on. I took it four months ago, when we was in some shop.

"I'll be downstairs soon, Lou. I just need to wash my face." I mumbled the last part. 

My eyes were sore and dry from all the frying I had done this past day, or just this past hour! They were red and awful, and the face that looked back at me in the mirror looked broken. 

I splashed my face with cool water, and dried it off with one of the small towels that hung on the hook on the wall. I checked in the mirror again, shrugging. I can't cry more, I gotta do that interview without looking like I've been crying a few hours. 

I slowly made my way downstairs, and joined the lads where they was in the living room. They all turned quiet when I sat down, and looked at me concerned.

"Harry?" Liam said weak. I looked at him, giving him a half-hearted smile.

"It's okay." I mumbled. 

"Your mum called before." Niall spoke up. "She wanted you to call her when you came down." He threw the phone in my lap. 

"I'll go call her then!" I said, and got up from the couch.

I usually don't cares if they hear me talking on the phone, but it's different when it's my mum I'm talking too. 

I walked upstairs to my bedroom, and laid down on my bed before pressing the calling icon named 'mum<3'. I pressed the phone to my ear, and closed my eyes as I listened to the signals.

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"Hello? Harry?" I smiled when I heard my mothers voice, the first real smile i've smiled in a while.

"Hi mum!"

"Harry, how are you?" She asked concerned.

"I'm okay, I just miss her..." I sighed. She knew about it all now, and she've been supporting both of us, even if Sandy doesn't know that yet!

"Harry, Sandy wouldn't want you to be like this!" She sighed. "You can't be like this, you have to pull yourself together!

"I know, mum..." I said, and looked up in the ceiling.

"You gotta stay positive, okay? You'll meet her on Christmas, and when you do, she'll be better! I know it!" I smiled again when she said that. "She's strong, Harry!"

"I know that, I believe in her!" I looked at the photo of her.

"Gemma is concerned about you too, and about Sandy." She sighed.

"Say hello to her, and tell her not to! It will be okay!"

"I will! I have to go, we're going over to grandma! Take care Harry, okay?" 

"I will mum! Say hello from me till grandma!"

"I will, darling! Bye Harry, take care!" 

"You too mum, love you!"

"I love you too!"

"Bye!" I smiled as I hung up, happier after this talk.

I looked back at the photo, smiling as I studied her beautiful smile, it seemed so real! 

Not so long, Sandy! We'll soon see each other! 

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I sat like 'No way I'll reach 11500 reads until Sunday!', then I woke up, seriously! Well, I keep my words! So, Sazzy is back! :D Idk, you're just amazing, kay? I hope you like it! I've worked on it for a week now, and it turned out as I wanted it! :))

I already got 51 reads, 6 votes and 6 comments, and I'm all like 'Gotta love my girls!' ^^ So, from now on, you're my girls, a part of my family! :D How does that sounds? We can all be in team Sazzy! #TeamSazzy okay?

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