"thanks for dropping him off Sam," i said letting him enter
"yea no problem, matt told me what happened."
"oh." i looking down picking my nails, which is what i do when im nervous
"i knew you still had feelings for him,"
"i know i hate myself for still having feelings."
"don't,"
"how can i not, i just made things weird between us two."
"no you didn't, he did." Sam laughed
"i mean he can't even look at you for fuck sakes. you don't even know he much this kid still loves you."
"he still loves me?" i smiled a bit
"how can he not you're the mother of his child, and plus you were the only girl he actually fell for."
"what do you mean?"
"he never believed in love before you."
i sat there quietly not wanting to say anything.
"nazi, nazi you remember that day we saw mason at the store and i went looking from you right?" he said and i nodded
"we went home and we told everyone that we saw you. nate wasn't there to see what happened next because he left to see you, but if he was there matt's best friend carter won't be alive right now."
"why do you say that?"
"once he left, we were having a conversation and Cameron told Matt he was a jerk. then Matt was telling everyone to stay out of his business." the carters dumb ass decides to say stuff about how hot he pictures you."
"then Matt got all heated up because of the way he was talking about you," Matt needed up punching carter until cameron and i pulled him apart."
"so he cares about me." i smiled
"yes and he loves you." nazi what don't you understand about that?"
"i just can't, Sam."
"why can't you?" he said getting a bit angry
"because." i paused for really long time
"because what? nazi" he was angry
"because ive tought myself to not fall in love with the same person for more than once,"
"come on, that's the best you can come up with?"
"shut up sam," i rolled my eyes
"you know im right,"
"of course you are!!" is that's what you want to hear?!" i yelled which scared him "i know i still love him! no one can tell me if i do or don't!" i yelled even louder
"you don't have to scream," he said
i sighed "yes i did Sam that's the onl-"
"uncle sam can you take me back to dads house?" i saw mason come up to Sam with tears falling from his face.
"what mason you're home you can go tomorrow.. What's wrong?" i said
he whispered in sam's ear.
Sam got up and i got up as well.
"he said your screaming scares him, and he hates being around you when your angry."
"are you kidding me?" i began crying
"im losing him," i took deep breath
"we're gonna head out," Sam said
i sat down and put my head down, this is the hardest i've ever cried.
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secret„ mle
Fanfiction"you don't understand! he can't know it's going to ruin him, he's going to leave me." she cried one thing she knows is that this secret can't hold for any longer
