#Fabulous

Confession.

Ok, remember the chapter titled. Oh No. Well if you don't please go re-read it so you'll get this one.

Ok, remember how I said (cause my crush got Wattpad) that if my crush saw how I wrote about wanting him, (not that way *blushes*) well guess what.

He read it.

So, he got me to confess somehow like five days ago or more. I don't keep track. And just today. The day I posted this. I figured out he knew from Wattpad.

Then he told me a secret. (No, sadly he doesn't like me. but whateuvs by hearts broken. It's fine.) and I said that if he liked me like I liked him he'd never (insert secret here which includes us being in a relationship)

Then he said he wasn't sure if he was ready for something like that.

So I said that he answered my prayer, (cause he did) that I wasn't ready for a relationship either. I'm really young ya know.

Then he said he had to go. So we said goodbye.

Ok, I think I made it real awkward making him say he had to go because I said I'd be there for him.

Honestly I don't know though. I don't know if God has plans for me to be with someone else. There was some guy at a restaurant who cooks Hibachi and I said quietly at my table that I'd date someone who could cook Hibachi. So of course I found him staring at me with lovey-dovey eyes.

Not that I mind though, any guy who cam appreciate good food qualifies at some point.

Buuuuuuut- I think I just made our relationship a lot more awkward.

But I've said all those things on here. How would it be more awkward over text?

Maybe it was just because I was plainly admitting that I'd date him in the future if he wanted me to.

Holy cow I'm such a failure.

So please pray for me if you know God, and even if you don't.

God please help me.