The Avestan Viewer -- A Wolf Love Story

Chapter 38 -- Recovery and Reflection

Stephen's wolf looked amused and trotted to the back of the cabin and I followed eagerly. This hot spring was in the shade and had three pools with more formal stairs leading down into them. There was also a wooden hot tub built next to them and a type of sluice to let cool water from the creek run into it. I shook my fur which felt wonderful, and shifted back to my human form and stretched, my wolf was so happy she got to run. I went to the middle pool and put my foot in, it felt nice. Like the Goldilocks story, it wasn't too hot or too cold. It was just right. I waded in and just groaned at the pleasure.

Stephen stood there in his wolf form and watched me, I could see his 'stiffy' poking out. Stephen shifted and looked around, checking for threats. He still had a stiffyhard on and walked over to join me in the middle pool. There were cedar underwater benches built which felt soft and nice, and I lazily stretched out my arms and laid my head back and let my legs float in front of me. I should have shaved but just hadn't felt like it. Well I wish I would have now but shrugged it off. Stephen didn't seem to care either way, but I liked doing it.

I heard Stephen wade in and sat on the bench and stretched out his arms. He linked our fingers and put his head back and relaxed. This felt like heaven.

"Why don't I want to make love, Stephen?" I asked him after we had been there a while.

Stephen was silent for a few minutes then said, "I don't know, love. But I think you've been pushed to your limits. I think you've been under some stresses that are unimaginable. I don't know but I need you to remember that I love you always."

My heart lurched a little at Stephen's words. We remained in the water holding our hands while I lazily laid my head back against the edge of the pool, looking up at the sunlight filtering through the fir trees. Then I just started talking to the tree tops. "I should have died Stephen." He opened his eyes and looked over at me. I could tell he agreed with me, there wasn't much to say about it. He saw what I saw, he knew I was prepared to die and that my final thoughts were of him.

I closed my eyes again and relaxed more. "When I was a young she-wolf I had fantasies of my mate, every girl does. And then I had all those dreams of you until I wanted to shoot myself from the frustration of not finding you. And then I saw you get out of that helicopter and you were the sexiest thing I ever saw." I sighed and opened my eyes to look up through the trees.

"I should have died that day in the wormhole. I still don't know why I didn't, the 'Tall Man' had defeated me and was getting ready to kill me. I couldn't even lift up my hand, I could only watch him. I was completely drained and weak, I had nothing left. And then-" I choked a little bit and I was surprised at the intensity of my feelings and the tears in my eyes.

I breathed deep and kept holding Stephen's hand. "And then... I saw Her leap over me. It... 'She' was the most beautiful and amazing wolf I've ever seen. There's no words for her etheric beauty and essence. She was so huge, Olympic huge, a Goddess. She glowed like the moon and I could only watch her feeling the most amazing wonder. I was glad she tore that bastard apart, I wanted to be the one to do it but I couldn't even move."

I felt the tears snake down my cheek. "Why me, Stephen? Why did I have to go through all of this? I swear I was a normal, boring wolf before I met you, I was an accountant for pete's sake. There was nothing to distinguish me from any other wolf. I really don't understand any of it. Why, Stephen? Why?" I stopped and just cried. I think I needed the release again. Stephen moved next to me and picked me up and held me on his lap. He held me and soothed me, kissed my hair and send me calming feelings. Just smelling him, just feeling his skin, feeling his love was so healing. I soon stopped crying but I needed to let it all out, sitting under the trees, just being calmed under the trees in these naturally hot waters.