Falling For Noah Miller

Chapter 22 - Call A Doctor My Heart Is Broken

"Wake up. Skylar. C'mon wake up. Please wake up."

My eyes fluttered open and I groaned as I felt a massive head ache. I blink my eyes a few times and I soon get a clear picture of what's in front of me. Its a very worried looking Noah.

"What happened?" I asked and sat up slowly. He kept his hand on my arm I guess trying to help me sit up.

"You fainted." He said. "Tell me what you remember." I furrowed my eyebrows and the events slowly flooded in my mind. Noah and I danced. Noah got drunk. I kissed Noah. A guy insulted me. Noah punched a guy. I cleaned up Noah's hand. Noah asked if he could tell me a secret. He said he was in love with me and I fainted.

Noah Miller told me he was in love with me.

I suddenly feel light headed. My hands shook nervously and my heart started beating faster. Love. Love. Love. What is love? Do I even feel it? Am I old enough to feel love? Do I love Noah? Is there a such thing as love at first sight? Can I love Noah even though we have only been friends for a few months? Are we going to fast? Is he going to fast? Am I going to slow? What do I do?

"What do you remember?" He asked again. He seemed a lot sober than before and we are still in the same room and I can still hear loud music so I know the party is still going on.

"Everything." I mumbled quietly.

"Everything?" He asked.

"Everything." I nodded. Then it became an awkward silence. I stared at the floor with wide eyes. It felt like Noah was watching me. I'm so confused. Why did he tell me he wasn't ready for a relationship? Why did he kiss me twice if he wasn't ready? Why did I let him? And why did he tell me he was in love with me if we aren't even boyfriend and girlfriend? Why is he so confusing? Is this what it likes to like someone? Is it normal for me to be feeling angry right now? Should I feel angry? I am angry. Really angry. I have a right to be, don't I? I mean he keeps doing these things like we're dating and then he tells me he isn't ready to date and then he's not even giving me an explanation as to why he isn't ready. His he just using me as his personal toy until he finds something better than me? Does he just not want to be with me? Am I just being used just like I have been before? Its making me irritated. He's making me irritated.

I jerk my arm out of his grip and stand up from the bed. He looks at me confused.

"What are you doing?" He asked.

"Just stop, okay? Just stop doing things that are confusing me! Don't kiss me and hold my hand or touch me or anything! You're making me so irritated! One minute we're holding hands or kissing me and the next you're telling me how your not ready for any of this! Noah stop it! You can't just use me when you feel like it. Kiss me when you want to! I said I would wait for you to be ready and I have kept my promise but that doesn't make me your personal toy! I'm not yours! You won't even tell me why your not ready! It makes no sense because you act like it all the time! I think I deserve some type of explanation! Because Noah you are freaking confusing me!" I yelled. Noah's eyes were wide.

"I'm not using you! I wouldn't do something like that! And I wouldn't lie to you. Skylar-"

"Noah I can already predict what you're going to say. Just please tell me why. Don't tell me your sorry because I don't want to hear it. Just tell me why!" I yelled cutting him off.

"I can't tell you right now!" He yelled back. Normally I would be scared by yelling from a male but right now so much adrenaline was going through my veins that I wasn't phased by it.

"Noah just tell me! I'm a big girl I can take stuff! Stop hiding things from me! Because that isn't what friends or whatever we are do to each other! We don't hide things like that from each other! Just tell me!" I yelled back.