Bullshit, Rants, and Lols

Failure of a Mangaka

Honestly.
I'm really not cut out for this whole Mangaka thing.
I can't write stories...
And I lose inspiration so easily.

I lose my drive within a month

And to throw a cherry on top, I'm having a really hard time drawing right now.

No matter what I do, I just can't draw from the heart.
If you're an artist you'll get what I'm saying there.

There's just something that...CLICKS...and you can draw without thinking.

I think too much while drawing now.

I really can't escape it can I?

It's so frustrating, and the fact I can't draw right now is really bothering me!

I wanna get out of my environment and forget about it for awhile, but I don't have that kind of freedom to just get up and go galavanting.

I really want to write a GOOD manga. And I have really good premises, but...
I just get tired really easily I suppose.
I have no pressure to continue, yet lots of pressure to keep going just makes me want to run away!

There are people willing to help and I feel like I'm taking that for granted, but how can I do anything like this without my heart in it?

Ahhhhguuuuuuuhh

This rant flew way off course and I can't focus well.

I really want to take a break from Wattpad and updating.
So maybe I'll break from Updating everything except one book I have on my Wattpad.

I feel like Danisnotonfire, existential crisis EVERYWHERE.

At this moment, I can really understand the song "Lost one's weeping" sung by Kagamine Rin.

I really want to write more about my issue with not being able to be a Mangaka...
But I really don't have much else I can say.