dad,
was a complete dick
the entire time
we were fishing.
I know,
"Why didn't you say no?"
"Are you fucking stupid?"
I heard it all when I got home.
No matter how much
I am fighting
the agreement for custody
I am required to spend time with him,
and fishing
was one of them.
The entire time I was with him
I couldn't help
but worry
and watch my words
for care
of slipping
and saying Justin
or Raylin
or Eliza.
I hardly spoke
because
that's all I could think of,
in a car with my dad.
Fishing was horrible
and good god
if the man talked any more
My ears would come off.
and every moment
I thought
of how much I hated him
and wished he would get out of my life.
On the ride home
he asked me,
sober,
but probably high,
"How's your slut of a girlfriend?"
and you know what I said
"Shut the hell up."
but.
it didn't end there
"You know you don't have to be pissed off
if your whore cheated
it happens to me all the time.
It's their job right?"
I think I lost it
right about thereish
"She's not a whore,
she's not a slut,
she didn't leave me,
and I'm nothing like you.
You don't kn0w anything about me
so shut the fuck up
and drive me the hell home
where I should be."
Instead he pulled over
and looked at me.
"Do you want to pretend
that your life was horrible?
You had a good life
and you know it."
I scoffed
"Good life,
every night
you would beat
mom
and I
until we could no longer stand.
You beat me
every time I saw you.
You threatened to rape my mom,
and then did.
You threatened to rape my girlfriend
and I'm not letting that happen.
So drop this,
'life was great'
pitch
and drive me the fuck home
so I don't have to be around you
any longer."
He turned to me
with hell in his eyes
"Don't you tell me
what I did and didn't do.
Don't tell me
what to do.
Don't accuse me
of things.
You are my son
and that means
I demand respect
and
I don't need to be snubbed
by my own son
who should learn his place."
He's so full of himself
"Respect?"
I said laughing
"you'll never get any of that.
Not from me,
not from mom
not from Eliza
not from anyone.
You see,
that's what happens
when you beat the shit out of your kid
and your wife,
you lose respect from the world.
and if you think I haven't leaned my place
then you are more fucked up
then you even know
because I have
and it's with Eliza
and our kids
so take me home
then leave me the fuck alone."
Oh,
shit.
No!
I didn't
Son of A bitch
and
the
world
goes
dark
as
pain
lights
up
on
the
side
of
my
face.
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