Things Only Musician Understand

Part Twenty-Four: Eliza

It's been two months

since my last break down

and I just can't let it happen again.

Raylin was awake

and I was yelling at myself

for being stupid

and naïve,

when he handed me

my cell phone

and it was JJ.

Of course it was.

He yelled at me

for feeling that way,

and told me he loved me

and he would hold me again someday,

but I don't know what to think.

He told me he would hug me

and he would hold me

and he would kiss me

If he could,

but he couldn't

so he didn't.

he told me to look up

because things were going to look that way too.

But,

I don't know

if I can trust him

or believe him,

but I have no choice.

and it's been

two months

of grueling life

and school,

and he hasn't come back.

I honestly can't make my mind up,

do I want him to come back,

or do I want him to disappear

forever.