I forgave the son of a Bitch
of course I did
but he didn't deserve it,
I thought
taking the razor blade
and dragging it across my skin
leaving a line
slowly welling up with blood.
I don't deserve this life
no one does,
but this is the best life
that anyone in this family has had.
I was abused
JJ was abused
Justin was orphaned
Raylin was orphaned
and abused.
JJ leaves me here
with
"Our Children"
and he expects it to be all better
when he gets back
just because he writes this little journal
telling of all he's had to endure.
PTSD,
my ass,
it's another way to get into my head
so that I'll forgive him.
How stupid does he think I am.
Fuck,
I can't take this anymore
I can't leave
and I love these boys
but I can't do this on my own
but I wont do it
not with
JJ
not
with
damien.
Pushing all my friends away
so that I can do it alone
like I wanted it that way.
God,
Damn
it!
I just need to make up my mind.
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