Things Only Musician Understand

Part Twenty-Four: Eliza

It finally happened,

we snapped,

in a good or bad way,

I will never tell.

I was putting Raylin to bed,

and I was singing

House of Gold,

I finally put him down

and left the room.

I was in the kitchen

when Jj came in.

I turned around

to say Hi

and he put his hands on either side of my face

and kissed me

with no warning.

I didn't disagree

in fact

I let him,

but after,

I'm pretty sure

we might have fixed things.

We were getting passionate

and we laid down on the couch,

but then he stopped

and leaned back to the other side of the couch

as far away

as he could possibly get

and stared at the wall.

I was confused

so I dared to ask

"JJ,

what was that?"

"We should talk."

"Okay,

lets talk than.

You should start because you suggested it."

"Eliza,

I'm so sorry.

I say that a lot now a day's,

but this time

I really mean it.

Im sorry about everything,

but

at the same time

I think

it was just the universe

yet again

screwing with our lives

and pulling us closer.

I'm sorry I left,

I'm sorry that I kissed you,

I'm sorry that I came here

I'm sorry about everything,

and you have every right

and reason

to kick me out on my ass

and leve me there

to take care of myself.

I'm sorry that I walked back in

after so long

and just started taking a role as a father,

I'm so sorry that you had to raise them.

I want to restart

and tell you everything from the beginning,

starting from

when my father came to the apartment."