The last few months
have been hell.
School has been good
but I've been having the dreams
non-stop.
I've had ones
of beating Eliza
of beating Raylin
of beating mom
of killing Justin,
all kinds
and they're killing me.
I don't know who I am anymore.
I'm lost
and even as I sit
holding justin
working on homework
I'm rocking back and forth
in anxiety
that I'm this close to him
and I could hurt him.
I'm freaking out
because every time Raylin hugs me
I'm confused
I don't know what to do
and I don't want to tell Eliza
because she's so happy right now.
She has all this burden
but she's found happiness in it.
I'm lost,
I'm confused
and I don't know what to do
other than pretend that nothing's happening
in my head,
in my life.
I just want it to stop,
somebody
anybody.
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