Things Only Musician Understand

Part Thirty-One: Eliza

today

was the worse outburst

that's ever happened.

I walked into the apartment

and everything was flipped

the apartment was trashed

it looked like someone broke in,

but I knew better.

I ran into the back rooms,

and was searching for the boys,

and JJ,

but in the end

all I found was Raylin

and Justin,

who were in my closet

where JJ put them,

because he didn't want them to see what was going to happen.

They had no clue where JJ was,

so I searched some more,

and didn't find him,

So I started picking up

after him

and flipping tables

and chairs back into place,

but,

as I did that

I almost had a heart attack

when I was making the bed back up

and a hand grabbed my ankle.

Under the bed,

was JJ,

that was the only place

that I didn't think to look in.

I got down to my knees

and looked into his eyes

to see that he had been crying

and his eyes

were no longer his again.

I pulled him out

and he laid there

on the floor

curled into a ball

crying

and saying he wished he was dead.

I ran to get the phone

and I called Sam,

and I called the psychiatrist.

Sam tried

but got nowhere

and the psychiatrist

was on his way.

when he finally got there

I had sent the boys to Wendy's

and I had cleaned the entire mess

that JJ had made.

JJ had stayed on the floor

like he was

in the moments I made the phone calls in

until the shrink got there.

he told me to call him Bob.

Bob went into the room

while I watched from the doorway

and he sat next to JJ