Secrets

Going on the Run

Chapter 28

                I had been tossing and turning for hours. I couldn’t drift off to sleep knowing what I was about to do. I just couldn’t find it in me to fall asleep. The guilt was unbearable. It felt like it was crushing me. It felt like I couldn’t breathe. The hurt I was going to cause him was hurting me too. I didn’t know if I could do this. Could I survive this myself? Werewolf pregnancies are never a safe thing.

                I was lying on my back on the bed. I was staring at the ceiling blankly. Thoughts were swirling through my head. My head was a mess of jumbled emotions and thoughts that were tearing away at my mind. I could feel Oliver’s presence beside me, something I would miss for the next one and half months. That was if Oliver even survives the war. I bit back on the sob that was threatening to break through at any moment. I had to stay strong for my child. I had to do this.

                I placed my hands on my belly which considering only several hours ago it was flat, it was now the size it should be. My belly was the proper size for the months pregnant I was. I rubbed my belly softly before I felt it.

                My child kicked.

                I felt under my fingers as my son kicked from inside. I smiled. My beautiful boy was making himself known. I felt a single tear of happiness full from eyes. This was so beautiful. This magical feeling of something growing inside me. A life inside of me. Magical.

                I looked at the clock beside me on the bedside cabinet. It was flashing half eleven. Close enough I thought. I gently got out of bed and walked to the closet. I pulled out the suitcase and the bag and placed it at the door ready for when I walk out. I slipped into some baggy clothing and a black coat and pulled my hair into a pony tail. I refreshed myself before sitting at the desk. I pulled out some pen and paper and began to write.

                Dear Oliver,

                When you read this I will be long gone,

                I didn’t want to leave but for reasons I can’t tell you, I must go,

                Don’t give up and don’t look for me, Keep going,

                You must keep going for the kingdom and both of our families,

                Ali and the protectors are with me,

                I am so sorry for what this will do to you,

                I love you more than you know,

                Elouise xxx

                I saw a tear drop stain the sheet of paper. I finished the sheet leaving it so that Oliver would easily see it. I stood up taking one last look at Oliver’s sleeping figure. He looked so peaceful. I felt my heart breaking. He would wake up and not know what will have hit him.

                I grabbed the suitcase and the bag full of money and went down the stairs to the sitting room. I couldn’t believe how big my belly had gotten so fast. I walked into the living room where the six protectors and Ali were already waiting. They looked at me and then down at my baby bump slightly shocked which only made me blush.

                “Are you all ready?” I asked, looking to each of them, “You can turn away now because I know a lot of you will be leaving your mates for this period.”