Secrets

Life After Death

Chapter 38

                I felt weird. I felt different. Instead of feeling numb and heavy. I felt light. It felt like I could float. It felt like I was physically floating in air. I didn’t want to open my eyes. I didn’t want to feel anything. I didn’t want to admit and accept where I was right now. I just couldn’t do it. I had lost everything. My family. My child. My mate. I couldn’t accept this.

                This was unfair. I had done everything. I went through so much pain. Emotional turmoil and this is what I get. My life has been so hard. I have nearly died once already. Been forced to leave my mate. Now I have been captured, stabbed and killed. No. I can’t accept it. I won’t accept it.

                I need to live. I want to live. I want to grow old with my mate. I want to help the kingdom recover. I want to do something. I want to watch my son grow. I want to give him brothers and sisters. I want to be there on the day he finds his mate. I want to see him get married and become King. I want to see his children. My grandchildren. I will miss everything.

                Oliver. Oh god. He was a mess. I can still hear his voice. His sobs. His pleading as I lay dying in his arms. It was heart breaking. It literally shattered into a million pieces. This was cruel. This was wrong. Me and the ones I love have been through too much. What is this fate? Fate has done nothing but tear us apart. We will never be complete. How can I accept this? I can’t I won’t.

                I don’t want to open my eyes. I don’t want to face reality. I don’t want to face any of it. Opening my eyes will just confirm all of this. I died in Oliver’s arms.

                I fluttered my eye lids open to reveal a beautiful light blue sky with the fluffiest white clouds I had ever seen. I was lying down so I pulled myself up so I was sitting. I was sat in a beautiful meadow. The most vibrant coloured flowers decorated the meadow. A light cooling breeze followed effortlessly through the flowers allowing me to smell their delicate scents. The meadow was surrounded my forest on all sides. The leaves were of the richest colours I had ever seen.

                I stood up then and inspected myself. I looked down at myself. I looked over my arms and I was flawless. There was not one bruise or one imperfection to indicate the situation I had been in. I was wearing a flowing white dress. It was simple yet elegant and classy. My hair was in light curls cascading down my back effortlessly. This place was breath taking. It was beautiful and amazing.

                I didn’t want to be here. I wanted to be with my family, my loved ones. My husband. My son. Being here only brought me sadness of everything that I had lost. I needed to get back. I didn’t want to remain here any longer.

                I paced back and forth through the grass and the flowers feeling them beneath my bare feet as my dress dragged across the floor. I felt like I was going to start crying. I had fought so hard and for so long for it to only end like this. I had only just turned 19 for goodness sake. I was young. I had a life to lead with my family.

                I noticed movement to my right and I turned quickly. I scanned the edge of the forest in search of the thing that had made the noise. I saw it then. A beautiful silver hinted wolf came out from the forest. I knew who it was immediately. It was my wolf. It was Alexandria.

                Her head hung low as she came towards me. She flung herself so she was lying in front of me. She looked as depressed as I felt. I sat down next to her and hugged her. I felt her soft fur. Is this what I had looked like? She was beautiful. The sun glistened off of the silver. It looked like she was glowing all of the time.