Talking about the crash was hard, but telling Aiden his part was going to be even harder. He was one of the reasons why I had changed and now I knew he knew that.
I went home and cuddled up next to G. I liked having him home but I know he's going back soon. Once he's gone I don't really know what I'll do.
After a little bit, we made spaghetti and garlic bread. You would think it'd go horribly wrong but actually, it was amazing. I may be biased because I hardly ever have a home-cooked meal but I was in heaven.
We did have one setback when Georgie forget to take out the garlic bread so we had to make another box which came out perfectly.
I ate much more than I have in a while. Home-cooked food always seemed to break through the barrier my body had put up when it came to food.
"Camryn, I have to go back to school. I wish I could stay but classes are starting so there's not much I can do. I'll be back before you know it and if there's an emergency don't hesitate to drive down. I'm only a few hours away and I'd love for you to see my new apartment and meet my girl."
I just nodded my head knowing there were tears brimming my eyes. I knew that he would eventually have to leave and I hated it, but there wasn't anything I could about it. He didn't know I decided to tell Aiden everything. I couldn't exactly tell him either because he wouldn't understand that I would confide in Aiden when he's been asking me to talk to him for years.
What will I do without him?
As I laid in bed all I could think about was that I had changed. I hadn't noticed it because no one had said anything so I just kept myself busy. So, if I changed was it a good change or a bad change?
If it's a good change then he wouldn't have said anything so it must be bad. Right? I was thinking about it too much so I rolled over and tried going to sleep.
Why am I in a car? It was raining and I didn't have to turn to know who would be driving. When I did I saw my big brother again."You're dead. This isn't real." He laughed and I flinched.
"What do you mean I'm dead? Cami, do I look dead to you?" As he said that his skin started to turn an awful grey color. It peeled away and showed pink underneath. I fought back the urge to vomit.
"No! This isn't real. Bubby, I went to your funeral four years ago. In a few minutes, a drunk truck driver is going crush you." He bitterly laughed.
"You stupid little girl if you weren't such a cry baby I would've lived."
Just in time, that truck came but Camdyn looked like himself again. The sudden change made me scream as the car jolted and flipped.
I jerked up and my body was covered in sweat. The tears made my face feel tacky and my whole body felt stiff. I got out of bed and make my way to the bathroom with shaky legs. I turned on the water hot enough to make my legs turn red.
I stood there until the water got cold and my toes went numb. I didn't know what to think. My dreams have never changed. They have come and gone and sometimes they're more frequent but that's the only change.
Never have I once seen his flesh rot off of him. But I've never fought the nightmares before either. I've always known it wasn't real but tonight I tried to stop it. Somehow doing that made it worse, made it change.
I can't get the image of his muscles being exposed. Seeing his veins running down his arms while the grey skin just peeled away. I shivered at the thought and pushed it away. I've always known deep down that when you die your body deteriorates but when I imagine my brother that's not what I see. I see him singing in the car and playing video games with Aiden.
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Be Still My Heart
ChickLitCOMPLETED JANUARY 9, 2018 Camryn Louis is the poster child for everything that is perfect in the parent eye. Straight A's, perfect attendance, studies every night, does what she's asked when she's asked. She's all around perfect in school and at hom...