Music To My Ears ~ Bucky x Reader

Chapter 4

A/N: i'm going to post every day! So keep reading as it's going to start picking up now I've finally set everything up.
Flashbacks in between //\\

•is this more then you bargained for yet? I've been dying to tell you anything you want to hear. Cause that's just who I am this week•

// We were stood in a dark room. The only light was centred around a man tied to a chair. I had a rusty old gun in my hand and I could tell that the boss was stood somewhere near me.
"If you're going to keep up your end of our deal you have to do as I say. So, I say, kill this man"
My eyes wandered up and down the man I've been asked to kill. He looked about mid 30's and I couldn't help but notice the gold band around his finger in his left hand. Married.
"W- What has he done?"
"It doesn't matter do as I say"
I lifted the gun and set it at eye level. I aimed for in between the mans eyes. And I held my position.
"Take. The. Shot."
"No" I said lowering my gun then I was pushed to the floor and beaten. They threatened me saying they'd kill people I love. They said I had to do as I was told to get a reward of therapy for my telepathy.
Ill never know his name or his story or why I have to do it. I didn't use my telepathy because it hurt. It always does. I have no control. They have the control.
So I pulled the gun up to my eye level. Aimed my gun. Then- BANG. \\
I woke up sweating and panting like usual only to hear Bucky lightly tapping on the door. I glanced at the earphones on the side then I used my powers to open the door from my bed. Bucky burst in panicked.
"Hey [Y/N] what's wrong I heard you shouting 'no' I was worried"
"Nightmare" I said sniffling "i'm sorry I didn't mean to wake you"
Bucky didn't say anything else, he walked up to my bed and laid down next to me. I was glad to have him close. I felt Safer.
"I get nightmares too. You didn't wake me they did. And i'm sorry I like the company" he said relaxing a bit.
"I like the company too." I glanced at the clock, it was only 2:30am too early to train we'll wake the others. So I sink into the bed and relax too. I grab my iPod from the bed side table then I stick one earphone in and offer the other one to Bucky. He says nothing but he smiles and slips it in his ear.
Then I feel a long muscular arm snake round my body and pull me closer. I rested my hand on Bucky's chest and watched it rise and fall because of his heavy breathing. He was hot under my skin. But I could still feel the cold metal and I shivered. Bucky let out a tiny chuckle and I swear his lips gently brushed the tip of my head. But I was half asleep and I began to slowly drift away.

***

I was the first to wake up and I glanced at the clock. It's was 9am. I've haven't slept that well since they found me. My limbs were tangled with Bucky's yet somehow the ear phones were still in.
I traced small patterns on to Bucky's shirt, admiring the way he looked and felt. I pulled my hand away and Bucky's eyes fluttered open.
"Good morning princess" I laughed.
"Why'd you stop?" He said whilst stretching. Oh so he felt it...
"It's time to get up"
"Why?" He whined.
"It's 9am"
"Wow okay" then he pulled away from me and got up. I instantly felt cold and bare. Bucky ruffled his hair to make it stay down and smiled at me.
"Come on Doll we gotta train. Get dressed I'll be back in 5 minutes!" He said as he walked out my room.
I can't help but miss him. It sounds terrible but I think i'm falling for him. I know love isn't some fairytale or soppy fan fiction and I know it's been a few weeks but something about him just makes me- weak.
I slip in my gym clothes and pull my earphones into my ears. I can't get distracted now. Then I pull my [H/C] into a slick ponytail.
I open the door just as Bucky is about to knock. He's in his gym clothes too.
"Ah great minds think alike" He smirked and couldn't help but scoff and walk past him. He ran to catch up but it didn't take him long and soon we were at the hall.
We get started quickly, I keep my earphones in to concentrate. We started with the usual and then we moved onto hand to hand combat.
I pull my earphones out and push the thoughts aside as I stand ready for Bucky to attack.
"You're getting better at that" he said gesturing my tangled earphones and iPod on the floor. I knew what he meant. I can push the thoughts aside better know. And it's all thanks to Bucky.
He kept his word. He's been with me every time we do mental training. And I vowed never to cry and break down in front of him again.
Bucky smiled. And then threw a punch that I dodged. So he goes quick does he? I dodge another punch then I throw one but it's not nearly hard enough. He keeps going and going. I manage to dodge them all and throw a few back. But as i'm walking backwards to get away from him he kicks my legs and I loose balance and concentration. He punches my shoulder and I tumble to the floor. He doesn't give me time to get up. He drops to the floor and pins me down by my wrists, that he had placed over my head.
I can feel his breath in my neck. No stop [Y/N] I wriggle under his grip but he doesn't let go.
"Come on buck" then he looks st me like he's just come out if a day dream shakes his head. Then I feel his grip loosen and he climbs off me.
I shouldn't feel this way. I can't i'm a monster. I'm not ready. I'm not under control. And I'll hurt him. Plus i'm not exactly one of the pretty blondes he can pick up in 30 seconds and take her there and then. That's what he wants and what he likes.
Not me. He'd never like me.
He says his goodbyes and he leaves abruptly leaving me stood still thinking about everything.
How bad I am at hand to hand combat. How bad I am at being a Human being. And how bad it is to like Bucky in any way that isn't friendly.
I need to stop.
My thoughts are cut off when FRIDAY starts speaking.
"Meeting in the conference room, you're presence is requested [Y/N]"
"Okay i'm going Friday" I reply and I make my way upstairs.
What could this be?

• Volume ~ 10 •