Tyler's POV
"We advise you stay in the waiting room"
Those were the words that annoyed me the most, my own girlfriend was in extreme pain and I wasn't allowed to come in with her, all this caused was more anxiety, especially because all I could blame was myself.
The waiting room was painfully silent, the only sounds being interrupted were the echoed coughs and slight footsteps throughout the hospital. If you listened close enough, you would be able to hear the doctors and machines behind the closed door, but I couldn't being myself to concentrate. My head was too foggy, my own mental health mixed with my remorse for Jenna created this dark emotion bottling up inside my chest. I couldn't bare to be in public, but the guilt and worry gave me this unfamiliar sense of energy, my needs being totally disregarded as a priority of myself.
The shakes had come back to me through the hours, my legs bouncing so much, the people on the same row of seats I was on, decided to move out of discomfort. The time moved slow so much I could watch paint dry and it would be easier, my own head being the prison I was prone to.
Finally, the doors opened to reveal the same doctor that told me to wait, only this time holding a clipboard filled with notes.
"Jenna Black's family?" He announced, looking around to the few people waiting with me.
"Just me" I said, raising my hand slightly
The doctor nodded, guiding me through the doors and down the corridor, passing different patients in the ER with different cases. Their ages and looks ranged, leaving me slightly intimidated at all the eyes staring back at me as I passed. Eventually, he slowed down, pulling back the curtain to reveal the angel I fell in love with, her eyes closed as she slept peacefully. I couldn't help but be a bit disappointed I couldn't talk to her, but seeing her in peace and not suffering gave some sort of relief. As I sat on the visitors chair next to the bed, I noticed the doctor readying to speak, my hand wrapping around Jenna's cold nipped fingers from the air conditioning.
"She's well" He nodded, my lungs releasing a breath I didn't know I was holding. "Her tumour is shrinking as planned, and we don't really have anything else to worry about. Once she wakes up, you are welcome to go home"
"But what happened? She collapsed in pain, I thought she was going to die"
"It seemed to be a result of distraught, any sort of severe stress can cause an event like this to build up, especially when on such a dose of chemotherapy as she is" he explained, "Please, just keep her relaxed and away from any stressful situations, other than that, she's recovering really well"
I took a sigh of relief, thanking the man standing in front of me before he turned to serve someone else. My eyes wandered over to look at Jenna's face, her lips slightly parted as she slept soundly. She looked exactly like she did when I looked over at her in bed, Her beauty being what made me feel like the luckiest man alive. I couldn't help but have this sense of dread hover over me, the dark and heavy emotion still lingering around.
"It was my fault" I mumbled, "I'm hurting her"
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The sun was already coming up once we arrived home, Jenna immediately falling on our bed as we entered the bedroom. I could tell she was more exhausted than usual, yet she still tried to keep up the facade.
"Do you need me to get you anything?" I asked, propping up her pillow so she could lie comfortably.
"No, I'm okay for now Ty, thank you" she smiled weakly, her hand squeezing the side of my arm
"I'm sorry this happened"
"Don't be sorry-"
"I'm hurting you Jenna" I tried my hardest not to allow the tears to build up, gluing my eyes to my shoes on the ground. Jenna's vision was glaring into me, no need to look up to feel it.
"You're not allowed to leave me" Her voice cracked, her breath wobbling as she spoke. My eyes finally looked up to her, tears easily falling out quickly
"I don't know what to do Bella, All I do is cause pain. I put you in hospital, I'm not good for you!"
"You're not allowed to leave me" She repeated, shaking her head. "I love you, I would never agree for you to leave"
"But-"
"No, I would take a bullet for you Tyler, understand? No matter how good or bad you are for me, We're in this together"
...
I nodded, Jenna taking a deep breath in front of me before folding the blanket over.
"Come on" she patted the sheets, eventually sliding my shoes off on the side of the bed.
Before any other conversation could be exchanged, the birds outside began to chirp, the sunrise shining gracefully through the curtains
"I love you Bella"
"You mean the world to me"
A/N
I'm not dead lol
so I went to a party on the weekend and I've never felt so reconnected with everyone before
like it was insane, one guy I've known for years (since primary school) kept holding my hand and dancing with me and kissing my cheek and I was kinda like aye this is chill but he was so smashed, he tried to full on kiss me I was like nah nah
anyways, I met a ton of cool people, one of my best friends is going on a date with a girl we've been shipping her with for like a month, and I have more friends to talk to
I'm on my fucking period and I swear I'm having a crisis like I legit can't leave my house because my anxiety is so bad, I hate hormones so much I want to jump off the roof
~ Viella
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