Her Diary

Dear Mama-Diary

Her Diary

Chapter 11

Dear Diary

Entry#114

Dear Mama-Diary,

So, it's offical mum.

I started writing in this diary like I'm speaking to you. My Diaryname is Believe.

Haha, I'm so lame ain't I mum?

Iam.

I started treating everything that I recieved from you like it's fragile.

I cried ween I accidently riped that blouse you gave me two Christmas ago.

I had complained when you got me it, but now it is one of the prettiest things I recieved from you.

How long has it been?

Let me stop acting as if I haven't been counting the days since I last saw you.

Three months, two weeks, and four days.

I skim through my phone to see your beautiful face everyday...

Mum, I miss you.

Remember when I wrote I would stop cutting?

I tried mum, I've grown addicted to that small blade, and I depend on it to keep my mind off you sometimes.

Lemme change the subject you don't want to read this.

Zephyr, after the fight with his ex girlfriend and her friends- that fight I told you about six weeks back- well yeah I left  a part out I was suppose to tell you. Yeah, well he asked me was I jealous. Mum he was serious as well! That girl and her rat face. No, mum not evena rat cause them things there look better. Her gap mouth ugly hill billy looking self and he expected me to be jealous!

No! I was not.

He laughed when I got mad as well ! He even told me next time he gets a girl, I shouldn't beat her to a piup.

That made me laugh.

School that Monday- well I told you.

Normal. It was Just Normal. No Myra or her Friends. Just Class.

Oh, yeah mum! Last week ZePhyr almost found you! Well he did. I panicked when he took you from under my pillow and asked me why did I sleep with a colorful dictionary under my pillow.

I took youand told him, " I want a wide range of colorful vocabulary." and he called me a loser.

I was Happy he didn't try and open you.

And Mum ! He has a new girlfriend. Her name is Tracy. She's a huge upgrade from Myra. Well she's not exactly his girlfriend, but I think she's working her way there.

He smiles alot when she text him...

Yeah, she's his next girl for sure...

I've never met her yet, he showed me a picture of her though.

Anyways, mum! Ivory-her-that girl!

She's drifting from me mum! Ivory is post to be my bestfriend, but after you died... She started drifting from me and ZePhyr is quickly replacing her. She's hanging out with Myra and her batch more and more. We talk, but not how we use to. It's like a pain to speak to her now.

Amaris.

Oh Lawd Mum Amaris.

Amaris came home black and blue last night. She didn't know I was in the bathroom. I had just finished cu- yeah, well she walked in and I hadn't lock the door. Her face and lip was a mess.

She tried to lie to me and say she fell again, and when I threaten to call Isaac and Isaiah and make them go find this "Floor" that keeps triping her and demolish it. She broke down and told me the prick whose been doing this.

"His name is Troy, mum. He didn't mean it." She had said. I don't think she realised she called me mum, mum.

But mum she was so shaken. I helped her clean up and she laid with me in my room and I held her. Did you know she cries in her sleep for you?

I got mad at you for leaving us last night, but after a while I remember it was out of your control.

Isaiah and Isaac have become major road man.

They've become feared...

People are actually scared of them you know!

I don't see how ! They are too goofy and stupid to be feared by anyone in my eyes.

Daddy! Oh yeah mum he's much better! He's got a stable job again. From 4-3a.m at some office as a security. So, we barely see him till the weekend. He's off on the weekend. He's still a mess though,  but better then before. He has developed insomnia and has to take pills to sleep. He doesn't sleep much at all, and when he does he has nightmares. But I see him trying for us. Making it seem like he's pushing forward without difficulty but he is and I see this.

Today is Friday again. Of course it is. I decided I would stay home and write in you. It's around seven now in the morning and Amaris is still asleep in my bed. Mum, can you send an Angel to protect your oldest daughter? I don't like this "Troy" character and I think he might kill her. I haven't slept yet. I'm just so worried about her.

What am I going to do about them all mum ?

Zephyr is going to be mad as shit at me, I'm not going to call him and give him a headup that I'm not coming in for school today. Let's call this a break from his annoying self.

Should I wake Amaris up for college?

She deserves a break from school.

Ahhhh mum , I want so bad to find this "Troy" and give him a piece of my mind or show him a large medal piece of stick to his freaking face.That Prick had the nerve to touch my sisters beautiful face.

When I see him, He gon here me. - Byeee mum I hear someone down the hall.

 

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