Her Diary

Have faith in God.

Chapter 20

~Dream

Harley was allowed inside, once we got to my house. My brothers let her in for my benefit and Isaac was real reluctant, but Isaiah told him let her in for me and that she couldn't do much harm anyways.

I had two days of suspension as my punishment.

Harley, Zephyr, and I was in my room.

I laid my face in my pillow and curled in to a ball. The tears had stopped, but was replaced with a headache.

Harley sat at my desk and Zephyr sat at the foot of my bed rubbing my arm.

"It's alright love. God put her in your life as a lesson, she not apart of it no more, so be happy and stop this sulking." He said trying to pull the pillow out from in front of my face.

I held on to it tight.

"Zephyr, God obviously doesn't like me. I don't know what I've done but he's been forsaking me with pain and things I don't want to bare the day he took my mum away from me." I said as he finally snatched the pillow from my face.

" That is not True love. God hates no one, and he's only giving you obstacles he know you can handle to make you all the more stronger." Zephyr replied.

"Zephyr get out. You are pissing me off with this. This God, If he is real I hate his sense of humour or whatever he thinks I can bare is clearly a load of shit. How in the fucking world did he figure taking my mother away from me was something I could bare? Letting my sister go through what she goes through? And when I did ask him to take me, he brings me back to life even though I should of fucking died. This God is cruel to me." I told him and he sucked his teeth.

"Stop chatting shit Dream. Life Happens, that don't mean you blame it on God. Some shit just have to happen, no matter how bad it is doesn't mean you should lose faith in him." Zephyr responded throwing my pillow back on the bed.

"Get out ! " I screamed and he looked at me and sucked his teeth. He got up and walked up shaking his head.

I would have never took him as a believer.

I sighed wiping my tears as Harley sat next to me on my bed and hugged me.

"My faith ain't up there, but I still believe. My life is not perfect , but when I pray I feel like it gets just a little bit better and someone is listening and working on getting me help, he probably just waiting for the right time and his time is always the right time." Harley said hugging me tight and I took a deep breath.

 "Pray with me, Please? My mother use to do it with me when I was thirteen and sometimes before our little football matches on Sundays." I told Harley and she squeezed my hands.

"Want me to lead?" She questioned and I nodded. We both bowed our head and she held my hand in hers as she began the prayer.

"Father God, we pray to you today to ask you to boost our faith, so much has gone on  that we need you to guide us lord. Father God, we ask that you forgive our sins that we have committed and help us find our way. We ask that you protect us and our families and even our friends lord. Help us get back on our feet and be ready for any trials that forsake us. Thank you lord, Amen." Harley prayed.

"Amen." I said as I opened my eyes.

"I'm not all that big of a prayer out loud, was that good?" She asked and I smiled and nodded.

"Let's go downstairs so I can apologise to the big lump. I shouldn't have gotten that mad in the first place." I sighed.

"I'll stay up here, you go ahead." Harley said as she played with her fingers.