Every Bad Thing

Chapter Fifteen

Silas:
Are you home?

Napangiti ako nang mabasa ang text ni Silas sa akin. Kakarating ko lang sa bahay at nagpalit muna ako ng pambahay. Palagi ko naman siyang tini-text kapag nakauwi na ako pero naunahan niya lang ako ngayon. Maybe because I'm ten minutes late from the usual time when I usually text him.

Hanggang ngayon ay nagpa-practice pa rin sila sa cotillion. He's still a part of it because I told him so. Nung gabi matapos kong magselos ay biglang may ini-send sa aking document si Silas sa messenger. It was an apology letter   addressed to their adviser and he was asking if he could quit the cotillion.

Pinigilan ko siya. Oo. Nagselos ako, pero alam kong mali na pigilan siyang gawin ang mga bagay dahil lang don. I should... I mentally gulped. Think maturely. Silas deserves someone who's mentally and intellectually equal to him. And I want to be that someone.

Hindi ko mapipigilan ang sarili ko nagselos. I'm innately possessive, I think. Since my father is the very definition of that. So, I did my best and thought of the best fix to cut down my possiveness and jealousy. Kinabusan matapos ng araw na iyon ay hindi na ulit ako naghintay kay Silas. Ang solusyon na naisip ko ay hindi na ako manunuod ng practice nila.

The thought of him with another girl still makes me jealous, but at least it's toned down. Kapag nakita ko sa personal ay baka hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili ko.

Being possessive is such a bad thing. I hate feeling it. It frustrates... It makes me feel like I could do every bad thing to whoever he's with.

I heavily sighed and bit my lip as I typed my reply.

Me:
Yup.. Nasa practice ka pa?

Katulad ng inaasahan ko ay mabilis ang naging sagot ni Silas. Just this little thing is enough to make me feel so... whipped. By him.

Silas:
Yes. We're on a short break.

Kumunot ang noo ko. Something heavy filled my stomach. Different thoughts... and girls ran in my mind. Fuck.

Me:
And you're with...

Natigil ang iniisip ko nang agad na tumunog ang phone ko para sa isang tawag. Si Silas.

Bigla akong kinabahan. I licked my lips. I curled my hair behind my ear and answered the call.

"No one." para akong inaamo nang marinig ang mahinahon na boses niya. His voice is enough to calm the storm in my heart and mind.

"Really?" I asked. I couldn't recognize my voice. I sounded like a kid that needed to be reassured that she's gonna get what she wants.

"Yes." rinig ko ang pagkatuwa sa boses niya. "Do you have some school works to do?"

"Wala." sagot ko.

"Anong gagawin mo?"

"I'll probably find something to entertain me while I can't reach you."

"No boys, Laurene." seryoso at may diin ang boses niya nang sabihin iyon.

Lumaki ang ngiti sa mga labi ko. Dalawang kamay na ang pinanghawak ko sa phone dahil pakiramdam ko ay malalaglag iyon sa kilig na nararamdaman ko. I don't know why I feel giddy whenever Silas acts this way. It excites me whenever he's being this serious and possessive.