Every Bad Thing

Chapter Thirty-Nine

Mahigpit ang hawak ni Silas sa kamay ko nang hatakin niya ako palabas ng supply room. Wala na si Orion sa department nang dumaan kami roon para kunin ang gamit ko. He never let go of my hand. Kahit na nasa loob kami ng elevator at may ibang tao ay hindi pa rin ako binitawan ni Silas.

I was too busy trying to calm my heart to even think of breaking free. Hindi ko na nga nagawang itanong kung saan niya ako dadalhin. How can I even speak when my heart is slamming too hard and loud in my chest? Hanggang sa tenga ko ay rinig na rinig ko ang bawat paghampas ng puso ko. 

I knew we were heading for the basement parking when Silas didn't move as the lift stopped at the ground floor. 

I inhaled sharply when the elevator pinged, announcing that we reached the end of the ride. My chest constricted when I felt Silas squeeze my hand. My heart clenched, too, like he's also holding my heart in his hands.

"Did you bring your car?" he suddenly asked, making my body jump in surprise.

The speed of my beating heart increased. I bit my lip and looked at him. He's gazing intently yet softly at me like he did before. Silas always looked at me like every word that I'll say to him matters.

"Yes." I uttered with a nod.

"I shouldn't have asked Tito to return your car." he heavily sighed and averted his eyes from me, looking frustrated.

My eyes widened. My heart beat ceased in my ears. Ang tanging narinig ko lang ngayon ay ang sinabi niya. "You did what?"

Silas glanced at me but quickly looked away when he saw that I was looking at him, like he's guilty of a crime. He pursed his lips. 

Hindi niya sinagot ang tanong ko at ipinagpatuloy ang paghihila sa akin. We stopped in front of the white Bentley that I saw the other day when Orion picked me up. It's been four years since I last rid this car. How can I ever forget? It's the day when I completely gave myself to him.

I was pulled back from my own thoughts when the car alarmed. Silas opened the passenger door before releasing my hand. I almost whined because of it.

"Get in." maamo niyang utos.

"But my car-" he cut me off.

"I'll take care of it." 

Hindi na ako umangal pa at pumasok na sa loob ng sasakyan. After securing my seatbelt, I sat still. Hindi rin ako gumawa ng kahit anong ingay. Nang pumasok si Silas sa loob ng sasakyan ay halos hindi na ako huminga.

Why do I feel so nervous around him? Nararamdaman ko rin naman ito noon... pero ngayon, parang mas lumalala. With him, it's always too much.

I stayed quiet as he ignited the engine and put the car into motion. My body stiffened when I felt something. Spark traveled all over my body and it started from my hand. My eyes dropped to both of my hands that were neatly placed on top of my lap to see what caused it. 

Silas was holding my hand. He brought it to the console. I looked at his face but his eyes never averted from the road the whole time he did it. I bit my lip. My heart throbbed. 

I stared at our joined hands the whole ride. None of us talked. Sa tuwing kakailanganin niyang abutin ang gear stick ay tsaka niya lang ako binibitawan. Every time he lets go of my hand, I'll be patiently waiting for him to hold me again. 

Our hands linked together feels perfect. How can something that feels so right be wrong? I don't understand.

The car halted. Silas released my hand to adjust the gear stick before switching off the engine. I raised my head and looked around. He parked in an unfamiliar basement parking. Somewhere I've never been. What building is this?