Every Bad Thing

Chapter Twenty-One

Nanginginig pa ang mga binti ko. Ang buong katawan ko naman ay parang sinindihan ng apoy sa init. It's only been a minute since we stopped from the hot make out session but I'm still feeling the effect of it. Mas malala pa nga dahil hinahanap ko pa rin ito.

I'm not straddling him anymore. Nakaupo na ako sa kama katabi niya, pero hindi ko pa rin magawang tumayo. Hinang-hina ang aking katawan. Pakiramdam ko ay bigla akong babagsak kapag sinubukan kong tumayo.

My lips are still tingling. I bit my bottom lip and brought my eyes to Silas. He's staring at me. His jaw clenched when his eyes dropped to my mouth. Napapikit siya na parang namomroblema.

He gulped and looked at me, his whole face was troubled. "Thinking about the guys who kissed you... Thinking about how I'm not the first frustrates me, Laurene." 

My heart clenched. Damn... His words are enough to make me crazy. I bit my lip harder, trying to control my emotions. I shook my head. 

"The firsts doesn't matter, Silas." I said, even when I know I don't believe that. I want his firsts, too. Nung prom night ay napatunayan ko iyon. Just the thought of him sharing his firsts with another girl is enough to drive me mad.

"It does to me." he breathed in sharply. He pierced me with his light brown eyes that shouted so many promises. "I wanna be your first and your last."

It's like something warm settled at the center of my chest. My teeth found my lower lip again. I bit it down hard. I didn't avert my eyes from him. I couldn't. He's got me locked with his stares. 

I breathed in deeply before nodding slowly. "You will be."

A tender smile covered his lips. His light brown eyes shined brightly, showing his delight. He grabbed my hand and brought it to his lips, kissing it lightly. My heart swelled. I can't help but smile. 

I giggled and quickly stood up. I'm okay now. I'm content with just this. I stood up from my bed and squeezed his hand. "Let's go?"

Bumagsak ang ngiti ni Silas sa mga labi at bahagyang namula ang kanyang mukha. He cleared his throat. "L-Let me calm my... self first."

"Huh?" kumunot ang noo ko, naguguluhan habang nakatingin sa kanya.

He pursed his lips. He's still flushed red. What calm? May problema ba? I searched his face, and then scanned his body. My eyes landed on the obvious bulge forming on his crotch. My eyes widened and my lips parted at the sight. 

"Laurene, wag mong titigan." Silas sounded uncomfortable when he said it. My eyes raised back to his face. He's blushing really, really hard now.

"I-I'm sorry pero kasi..." I unconsciously looked at it again. 

"Laurene!" suway nito.

It was my turn to blush. I bit my lip and transferred my eyes to Silas's face. "D-Do you want me to do something..."

"What? N-no!" nawala ang pagkapula ni Silas at napalitan ng pagkaputla. Kitang-kita ang panic at kaba sa kanyang mukha. 

"Do you wanna mast..."

"Laurene." he cut me off. 

Itinampal ko ang libreng kamay ko sa aking bibig. Kung kanina ay gulat ako sa sitwasyon niya pero ngayon ay parang kinikiliti ako at gustong matawa. 

Bumalik ang pagkapula sa mukha ni Silas at ipinatong ang mga kamay sa ibabaw ng hita niya para harangan iyon at hindi ko makita. 

"Don't laugh at me. Kasalanan mo 'to." he weakly mumbled.

I dropped my hand. I wasn't laughing anymore. I bit my lip, trying to restrain the big smile on my lips. "You're so cute, Silas." 

The next morning, it was the same lazy and unexciting routine every Monday. Iba talaga ang bigat ng katawan tuwing Lunes. Palagi na lang may hang up sa weekend. Dagdag pa na wala akong tulog kagabi.