Every Bad Thing

Chapter Forty-Three

Something soft and warm brushed my cheek, making me stir from my sleep. The in between of my eyebrows knitted as I peered my eyes open. Silas' face was the first thing I saw.

He was intently staring at my face that I swear I could have melted. His eyes were soft. I can almost feel it grazing tenderly on my skin. A small smile curved on my lips.

"Goodmorning." he murmured, searched my face from my forehead down to my lips.

"What are you doing here?" I asked, and then covered my mouth when I realized I just woke up and I haven't brushed my teeth.

Silas grinned at what I did. He leaned down and kissed the back of my palm, the one I'm covering my lips with. My eyes widened a little. He sat up with a smile still drawn on his face.

"We're gonna enroll today, remember?"

"Ah! Oo nga pala." agad akong napabangon. Silas softly chuckled and moved aside to give me some space.

Binilisan ko ang kilos ko dahil ayaw ko siyang maghintay nang matagal. We ate breakfast with the family before leaving the house.

I'm very excited for this semester. Paano kasi ay magiging parehas ang schedule namin ni Silas. Imagine, after being in the same university for four years, ngayon lang magkakatagpo ulit ang landas namin. All because we have different day schedule.

Kahit na hindi ko itanong ay alam kong inalam niya ang akin para hindi magkatagpo ang landas naming dalawa. If I was him, I'd avoid me, too. I won't blame him, it's what I wanted before, anyway. I wanted him to hate me so he'd stay away, and it worked.

It's a mistake that cost us both four years of being away from each other and I've learned from it. There's no way I'm letting it happen again. It was hell without him. I can't go through that again.

Silas reached for my hand as soon as the car door behind me was closed. Napatingin ako sa kanya dahil doon. Namula ang mukha niya sa naging reaksyon ko at nag-iwas ng tingin at binitawan ang kamay ko na parang napaso siya. He's acting like it's the first time he held my hand! 

Damn! Akala mo mahiyain at inosente pero nagawa niya akong... at sa kitchen niya pa! I can't finish the sentence even when I'm not event thinking it out loud! It's that explicit! Matapos namin gawin iyon ay hindi ko iyon mabura-bura sa isipan ko. Everytime I'll close my eyes, the vivid images will come in. Everything was vivid!

"L-Let's go." he stammered and turned, walking without me. 

I let out an amused grin. He's still the same old Silas. I shook my head. I bit my lip to hide my grin before chasing after him. Ako na mismo ang umabot ng kamay niya at pinaglapat ang mga daliri namin. I didn't look at him, but I could feel his eyes on me. He didn't say a word and we continued walking. A smile curved on my lips.

We headed to the main building. May kahabaan ang pila. Mabilis lang naman ang process ng payment kaya paniguradong hindi kami magtatagal. 

"Silas!" tawag ng isang malambing na boses. 

Agad na hinanap ng mga mata ko ang boses na iyon. My eyes landed on someone very familiar to me and the emotions inside me stirred into something unexplainable. I can't name it. Mukhang hinanap din ni Silas ang tumawag sa kanya dahil hindi siya agad sumagot.

"Francheska." he said with familiarity, he uttered her name like he'd said it for the  thousandth time. I felt my heart squeeze painfully. I don't like it...

"Mag-eenroll ka?" tanong nito. Mukhang hindi ako napansin dahil hindi man lang ako tinapunan ng tingin. 

My jaw clamped. Now, I feel bitter. Hindi ba halata? Gusto ko sanang sabihin, pero pinigilan ko ang sarili ko. I don't wanna be a bitch. Wala naman ginagawa yung tao.