eight
a/n: i forgot to keep writing chapter 7 oops
I end up being alone for the rest of the day, as for my best friends left me. Like, what the actual fuck? I understand Grace doing it, trying her best to make sure we were all happy, but I guess Nick didn't want to seem like the loser sitting at my table.
In the end, I guess they were just looking out for Alyssa.
Not understandable but whatever.
It was 4:30 and I remembered that I had "Study for finals" on my weekly planner. I sigh, heading to the library by myself.
Bitches I think, as I open the door, hearing lots of hushed whispers.
And of course every one stops talking when I enter the library.
Every one looks at me with judgmental eyes, making me sigh once more and walk to the book cases.
I was browsing through the Mathematics section, when I feel a tap on my shoulder and I turn my head to see Nick.
"Hey bitch," He whispers. "Sorry about ditching you at lunch."
"Oh, it's whatever, I'm just glad you came back." I whisper back, still browsing.
"Yeahh sorry again, I'm here with Grace." He points at a table where Grace was sitting, and she waves.
I give him a smile. "Alright, give me a few minutes to get the right book."
After 5 minutes, I feel another tap on my shoulder. I think it's Nick, but the tap was much harder. I turn to see a tall guy in a black jacket smiling at me.
"Yeah?" I ask him, turning around.
"Hey, what's your naame?" He asks, licking his lips.
My god I think, mentally rolling my eyes.
"Janelle." I say, crossing my arms.
He bursts into laughter, but is immediately hushed by the librarian.
"What? What is so funny?" I quickly ask.
"Oh, you're that gay sophomore I trolled last night! Are you seriously gay though?" He exclaims. Oh, so it was the chrchrchristal person.
This son of a bitch I think.
"Um," I shift my weight to the other side of the body. "Yeah, I'm gay." I sound really unsure and awkward, but whatever.
"Fag." He whispers, pushing past me.
"I know." I mumble, sighing.
"Oh, yeah?" He turns around for a second to look at me. "Get conversion therapy." Christal walks away, leaving me in my thoughts.
Conversion therapy? What is that? I think, grabbing a book and rushing to the table.
"You alright?" Grace asks, leaning over to look at me.
"Yeah." I state, opening up the book.
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I get home about an hour later, and my head hurt really bad. I learned nothing from that dumbass book and I was thinking of what conversion therapy was.
I walk down the halls to my room, opening up my laptop, and googling "Conversion Therapy."
I click on the Wikipedia site, not caring if it's Wikipedia. Not all information on the site was completely awful, and plus I was desperate to know what it was.
My eyes almost pop out of my head when I read the definition.
"The claim to change one's [LGBTQ+] sexuality to heterosexual."
The guy wanted me to force myself to become straight?!
Well, it's not like I wasn't trying to do that just 3 days ago.
But still.
Who tells a person something like that? A sexuality doesn't determine a person's personality.
Even IF being gay is wrong I think, and decide to read a bit more about conversion therapy.
For some reason, after reading some of the effects, it made me want to consider conversion therapy.
I mean, if I wasn't gay, I'd probably be a lot more happy. I thought of all of the things that would happen if I was straight.
I'd not lose any of my friends
I'd be able to do the Man Crush Mondays on Instagram
I could be the one in a gown at my wedding
I'd be able to have babies of my own and not adopt them
Wouldn't have to use a dildo
I came to the conclusion that if something went wrong for the next 3 weeks, I'd try conversion therapy.
Of course I'd never tell anyone this plan, but for some reason it felt good to be a bit more secretive than usual.
I close my laptop, and decide to use my math notebook to actually do some studying.
But of course that wouldn't last long.
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I was 3 hours into studying, and I hear a buzz from my messages.
Lyssa
hi I'm sorry about this morning, i was being such an asshole and i honestly don't know why i was acting that way, but you deserve to be happy and i love you :)Me
daww lyssa it's ok :)) ily moreI smile at her message, and sigh of relief that we're speaking again.
So far, conversion therapy is out of the topic.
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a/n: another filler
also i have a new book out called "ps, i hate you" if you wanna check that out
also this book reached 200 reads thank y'all omg
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青少年小說Janelle, a 16 year old student comes out as gay to her family, and to herself. Feeling as though her sexuality wasn't right, she finds ways to cure her homosexuality in the cruelest ways imaginable. Edited and cover: @kcthejoke