suicide note [ ᴷᵀᴴ ⁺ ᴶᴶᴷ ] [#wattys2017]

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warning: this chapter is a bit of a mess in my opinion, but there is a really important part in this. like honestly, r e a l l y important.
!aka: foreshadowing!

if you think you've found it, let me know ;)

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Jungkook had managed to fall asleep outside the bedroom, leaning against the wall. Taehyung had been extremely disappointed in himself for acting the way he did. He hadn't been able to control himself, and it scared him. He realised it afterwards, and he hated himself even more than before.

When the older had finally decided to exit the bedroom, he hadn't expected to see a sleeping Jungkook, and especially not a sleeping Jungkook still sitting on the floor. He felt bad when he saw it, he was the reason for it. The reason for Jungkook falling asleep on the fucking floor, because he was probably hurt in his back and was maybe scared to move? Scared of Taehyung?

The thought scared Taehyung, he had hurt someone he loved and cared about, what if Jungkook no longer trusted him? The older tried to shake the thoughts away, and he then picked the younger up bridal style from the floor, walked back into the bedroom and put him carefully on the bed. He felt his heart ache, and he immediately started to feel pathetic as well.

He knew that, in that moment, when he had done what he did, he knew that it was with will. And that made him hate himself even more than he already did. He definitely regretted it now, he couldn't believe himself or his actions, he nearly scared himself. Was he capable of hurting the people he loved? He couldn't continue doing that if it was something that he couldn't even control.

"Taehyung?"

The said boy jumped at the sudden mention of his name, and he looked at the bed. Jungkook was looking at him. "You-you're crying? Tae, are you alright?" Jungkook sat up, worry filling his eyes. Taehyung then sniffled, and realised himself that he was indeed crying. That was what his thoughts were capable of doing to him. "I'm alright, I just...uhm..." Taehyung looked away, feeling ashamed. He tried to wipe his tears away, but it was unsuccessful. "I'm sorry," he then managed to say with a shaky voice.

Jungkook stood up from the bed, holding in a small whimper at the pain he felt in his back as he stood up, and then approach Taehyung. "I'm not mad at you for doing what you did, okay? You were mad and I wasn't understanding," Jungkook explained. "Please, stop crying," Jungkook was now fully standing in front of the older, wiping the tears away that were still falling from Taehyung's eyes. "I hurt you, and you're just accepting my apology like that?" Taehyung said, looking right into the younger's eyes.

"Yes, because I know you, and I know that deep down, you would never want to hurt me, or anyone else that you care about, like that," Jungkook sighed. "Can we just forget that it happened?" Taehyung bit his lip. "It's not that easy, because I will have feelings of guilt because of this for such a long time," Taehyung then groaned, ruffling his hair in frustration. "You shouldn't hurt the people you love, and I hurt you and I wasn't able to control it, at all!" Taehyung dragged his hands through his hair multiply times, trying to keep more tears from coming. He had never been this mad at himself before, never ever. [got7 stans, anyone?]

"Calm down, Taehyung," Jungkook said before wrapping his arms around the older, hugging him tightly. "We'll talk more about this tomorrow if you want, but for the rest of the night, let's just forget it, okay?" Taehyung nodded, looking down on the floor as Jungkook pulled away. "I'm sorry, Jungkook, I'm really sorry-" "Shut up already, please?" Jungkook interrupted him with a whisper before placing his hands on the older's neck, and then leaning in, pressing his lips softly against Taehyung's.

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the next day.
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It was officially the next day, and Taehyung's boss had called him the night before, after Jungkook and Taehyung had been talking, saying that he didn't have to work today. Taehyung had asked why, but the boss said that there was no reason except that Taehyung should rest a bit at home instead. The boy didn't know why or how; but it did feel needed. Not only because of the thing happening with him and Jungkook, but also because he had started to feel kind of exhausted the last few weeks.

Jungkook had woken up first out of the two the upcoming morning, and the first thing he had seen was Taehyung. The older's slightly tanned skin had made such a beautiful contrast with the white duvet, Jungkook couldn't help but stare at it. He felt weird, but he couldn't help it. Without really realising it, his hand made its way forwards and ghosted on top of Taehyung's soft skin, his fingers were barely touching the skin; it was a very light touch.

Jungkook thought about it, he really loved Taehyung. He really did. He wasn't sure when he had felt this way about someone before, and even though that the feeling was kind of new and scary, he was definitely enjoying it. Having someone like Taehyung by his side made him happy, of course, what happened the previous day was still in his mind. But he would probably forget about that eventually, right? He admired the older's face, which was turned towards Jungkook. The younger couldn't help but smile. "How can you look so pretty while sleeping?" He whispered, his fingers now moving to Taehyung's face, then his hair. Jungkook then looked at the time on his phone, 9:18am.

He leaned a bit over Taehyung, then bending down with his face a bit, pressing his lips softly against the tanned skin. He started on the cheeks, forehead, nose, lips. Taehyung moved a bit, and Jungkook smiled happily. He then moved down to the jawbone, the neck, the collarbones, and that was when Taehyung opened his eyes.

"Ah, Jungkookie, what are you doing?" The older mumbled, trying to move a bit, but Jungkook didn't allow him, he just kept leaving soft kisses everywhere. "Jungkookie~" Taehyung giggled when the kisses started to come right beneath his collarbones. "Oh, are you ticklish?" Jungkook said with a teasing voice, raising an eyebrow. "N-no," Taehyung stuttered, blushing slightly. Jungkook chuckled before putting his hands on Taehyung's neck, starting to tickle him. The older immediately started giggling and moving around, trying to get Jungkook's hands off of his body.

"Ah, Jungkookie stop~" Taehyung laughed, Jungkook was just giggling. Taehyung then managed to lay on top of Jungkook instead, but he didn't tickle him, he just laid there, hands on each side of the younger's head, holding himself up slightly above Jungkook's face.

Jungkook was enjoying the view, a wide smile placed on his face. "I love you," Taehyung said, voice slightly low. Without letting Jungkook reply, the older leaned down and closed the gap between them, placing a simple kiss on the younger's lips. A simple kiss, but with so much meaning.

Jungkook placed his hands on Taehyung's cheeks, keeping the older not too far away from his face after pulling away. "And I, really, love you too," Jungkook whispered, before kissing the older, again.

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did you find it?

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seems like the majority of the people commenting on the my previous post wanted the very shook ending, now i'm wondering if it would fit the story or if it's too crazy?

whichever ending i choose; i'll post the one i don't choose afterwards just so you can get a view of both ideas since i'm pretty proud of them both.