wanting Ron (Rarl)

reality 8 (pt 5)

"Anybody moves, anybody says anything, cut the boy's other eye out and feed it to his father and then we'll start." he directs.

I look at him with a 'please no' look.

"You can breathe, you can blink, you can cry......well......you're all gonna be doing that."

"NO!" i yell.

He then smashes Michonne's head in.

"No!" i yell with tears.

He keeps just smashing her head in..... over and over.... Again....

He finally is done....

"Hahaha." he laughs.

He walks up to me and holds the bat up to my face.

"Look at my dirty girl!" he says.

I turn my head to the side.

He takes the bat and runs the top down my face and says "take a look at that!"

"Get that away from me!" i yell.

He bends down to my hight and cascades his finger down his bat.

Then he smears his bloody finger down my face.

"Get off my son!" Rick yells.

I shake my head and say "No dad its alright. He can enjoy this precious moment, but he wont enjoy me killing him." i threaten.

He slaps me across the face and says "is that really how your boyfriend died?"

"How did you know about him!" i say getting angry.

"A little birdy told me." he laughs.

I look down at my knees.

"You did not know anything about him... He was.... Perfect..." i say.

I turn beside me and see Ron smiling at me.

"Your were and still are the most perfect boy i ever seen." Ron says.

I smile.at him then turn back to negan.

"I bet you killed him." he said.

I glare at him and say "Why would i kill him."

"I don't know serial killers have there reasons." he jokes.

I spring up and look at him in the eye and yell "I WOULD NEVER KILL HIM HE WAS PERFECT!"

"I-I-I LOVE HIM!" i yell.

Rick looks at me with wide eyes.

Everyone looks at me with wide eyes...  Except... Ron he just smiles at me.

"Just forget it." i say.

"Okay now that i proved my point we well be heading out, i will be back to get my stuff!" he yells.

I fall down to my knees.

I put my hands in my lap and look down and start crying.

I feel a hand on my shoulder.

I look and see Ron.

I then stop crying.

"I miss you..." i say to Ron.

He nods and says "i miss you too... I love you." he says.

"Ron i want to be with you." i say.

He hugs me and says "your with me right now babe." he says.

I nod.

"Well i better go.Daryls about to come over to you..."he says.

I nod and smile at him before he disappeared.

I then start crying again.

"Carl... Are you okay buddy?" he asks.

I shake my head and lean into his touch.

"I never am anymore." i say.

"Its okay Carl...." Glenn says as he bends down near me.

I shake my head and glare at him and say "you don't know what it feels like to loose someone you.... Loved.... Cared for......someone you never thought..... Would........ Leave you."

Glenn glares at me and raises his voice a bit and says"your not the only one in pain Carl!"

"WELL AT LEAST WHEN YOU LOST SOMEONE YOU JUST GOT OVER IT I CANT DO THAT GLENN I NEED RON I NEED HIM WITH ME EVERYDAY!" i scream.

I pull down my sleeves and show him my cuts "DID YOU DO THAT HUH DID YOU?!" i yell.

"DO YOU STAY A WAKE AT NIGHT THINKING 'THIS IS ALL MY FAULT' NO YOU DONT YOU LAUGH AND SMILE AND MAKE JOKES!"

"I THINK ABOUT KILLING MYSELF EVERYDAY!" I finish.

After i finish i can feel the tears streaming down my face.

"He was my life." i whisper.

"You only knew him for 2 months i bet you hardly even knew the kid!" he accuses.

I stand up real fast and slam him against a tree while choking him.

"First of all his name is Ron and second of all---" i get cut of my Daryl shoving me off of Glenn and holding my back.

I try to get out of his grip but it is no use.

"IF YOU EVER TALK ABOUT HIM LIKE HE IS A NOTHING AGAIN I WILL KILL YOU!" i yell.

He rubs his neck and gives me a shocked look.

"Carl i think its time we go home."Rick says.

"No." i say.

He turns around and says "No?"

"Yeah. No. Im not going to live in the same "neighborhood" as him!" i say referring to Glenn.

"Really Carl your acting like an child." Rick sighs.

"Well okay. But if he talks to me once im kicking someones butt." i threaten.

I glare at Glenn and we all get back in the R.V and im sitting all the way in the back..  Alone.... With my knees propped up to my chest and my head resting on them.

Im all alone...