Connected [Luke Hemmings]

• Chapter 23 •

Mikey's Point of View is introduced here :-)

(GUESS WHAT: THIS ONES EDITED YAAAY)

• Chapter 23 •

Renn

Even being in a relationship with Luke is hard. Considering we've hated each other ever since and developing feelings wasn't the best idea.

"Us," I say, softly.

"W-what?"

Aren't relationships, boyfriends, etc supposed to make you feel good? Make you happy? Why aren't I happy?

Either way, with or without Luke, I'm not happy. But there's always one that I'd be more upset.

"Luke-"

"No, Renn please. Don't do this. I just need time, you know that. You know the way I am."

"See that's the thing Luke, I know the way you are. You're just going to end up hurting me and then apologise, and I'm going to be the idiot and forgive you."

"Renn please. Don't. I'm really trying."

"You're trying? If you were truly trying, we wouldn't be here."

"That's what everybody says! Renn please! I really- I..."

"You what Luke?!"

"I love you!"

I slap him. I don't know why, I wish I didn't. But I can't rewind the past.

"What the fuck?!" Luke yells, grabbing his stuff and walking out.

"I didn't-" I say but that's all that comes out before Luke yells at me.

"I knew I never should've fell for you! You're just as crazy as I thought!"

And the door slams.

Ouch.

*****

4 days. 4 days ago, I had slapped Luke because I was scared.

We dated for like a month! Who the hell says they love each other after a month, and then says 'I never should've fell for you' after that?

Luke's messed in the head. I know that for a fact because I hated him, liked him, dated him, now I'm back to hating him again. Except, I don't know if hate's the real word to explain it. I mean, I miss him heaps, but I know going back to him will just get me in trouble, and hurt more than ever.

Michael's been trying to make me talk to Luke, because apparently he's just as depressed as I am. I don't think I've used depressed properly either, but who cares? Every time I'm on the phone with Michael Gordon Clifford, he has to bring up Luke and my 'break up.' I don't even call it a break up because dating him was horrifying.

Now, I'm sitting in my bed, and I haven't had breakfast yet, it's just past midday. Jana has a morning shift today, and should be off in about an hour or so. She and Michael have been working together to try and make me go see Luke, or get Luke to see me. Either way, they're not succeeding and they won't. I'm done with Luke Hemmings.

Michael

"What do we do?" asks Ashton, changing the channel.

"I don't know, anything. She thinks I'm at work," says Jana, trying to tug the remote from Ashton.

"Why don't we cuff them together again?" suggests Calum.

"Would that work?" I ask.

"It worked the first time, it should work another," he says.