Incognito You

A Bun In The Oven

/'A baby fills a place in your heart you never knew was empty.'/
-Unknown

Rhian

"Are you okay Misis?"

Sinundan ko ng tingin ang babaeng nakaupo sa isang coffee shop sa tabi ng daan, she looks someone familiar, but im not so sure. Matulin ang takbo ng taxing sinasakyan namin, so i might be wrong.

"I think i just saw Solenn."

"Ha?? Diba nasa France yun?"

Sumilip siya sa bintana at nagpa-linga linga, napansin niya ang panginginig ng kamay ko. We're on our way to the fertility clinic, parang namamanhid ang buo kong katawan sa kaba. Maraming tumatakbo sa isip ko, mga bagay na pwedeng mangyari at hindi pwedeng mangyari.

"Relax Rhian, have no fear, hindi kita iiwan, im with you in every step of the way. Thank you for doing this."

"Thank you Glai...this one's for you. Sana maging okay ang lahat. Sa totoo lang natatakot ako, this have to work if not, wala na."

She held my hand, there's this magic everytime she held my hand, yung pakiramdam na wala akong dapat ikatakot because someone will be by my side no matter what, im never alone, never again.

"After everything na nangyari sa atin, one thing i learn is that all things happen for a reason, its all part of Gods marvelous plan, a plan that is way more than our understanding. Have faith Rhian, prayers can move mountains."

"Ladies we're here, XY clinic."

Glaiza hand the 30 dollar bill to the 40 something man. Mabait ito at magalang kaya binigay na lang ng asawa ko ang change.
Hand in hand, pumasok kami sa lobby ng 5 story building sa busy street ng downtown. Maraming couples ang palakad-lakad, agad kaming lumapit sa counter to confirm our schedule.

"Good morning, welcome to XY Clinic. How may i help you."

A tall curly blonde girl welcome us with an all out smile, Glaiza fish out the confirmation slip from her back pocket.

"Good morning, im looking for Taylor Swift."

"That's me, Taylor Swift, how can i help you."

Glaiza hand over the slip and the taller girl knew what we came here for.

"Ill have your schedule check for awhile. Please wait at the couch, this won't take long."

My wife nod and shake her head to some unknown beat, im sure kinakabahan din siya, minsan lang siya kabahan kaya nakakatuwa tingnan.

"Nervous? Relax lang Glai. Kanina ako, ngayon ikaw naman."

"If you only knew Rhi, para akong magka-cardiac arrest sa kaba at tuwa. Yung feeling na, yes this is it."

I fix her hair at caress those perfectly carved jaw. Hindi ko pa rin maiwasang kiligin sa tuwing naaalala ko na kasal na kami. Iba ang ganda ni Glaiza, hindi siya ang typical na maputi, sobrang tangos ng ilong, yung sobrang generic na ganda. Her beauty is something na habang mas tinititigan mo, mas lalo kang maakit, hindi ko ma-explain pero ang lakas ng hatak niya, the way she talks, the way she carry herself, yung deep sentimental persona niya, bentang-benta.

"I love you Rhian..im sorry for acting this way, pangarap lang 'to dati and here we are, moments away from having a precious life inside your womb."

"Exactly, kaya dapat kalma lang tayo, chill lang tayo Wifey, okay?"

Hesitant itong tumango, i hug her arms to offer myself some warmth.

"Excuse me love birds..please follow me, the doctors waiting for you."