Kaleidoscope

Chapter 5

After the embarrassing conversation, I decided to take a shower myself hoping it will calm me. But it just made me feel even more embarrassed. I really don't want to deal with Luke during dinner. 

"Faye! Hey!" I looked back to see Seth going down the stairs, waving at me with a friendly smile. It's weird that he's talking to me so friendlily, because earlier today I saw him becoming violent to Sana. 

Seth jogged until he's in front of me. The idea that he can go from 0 to 100 really quick makes me a bit uncomfortable, as I don't know what'll trigger him. I tell myself to calm down, I can't jump into conclusions about a person this early. "You don't know a person you just met. We are all maps, each of us have been many places and met many people. You can't necessarily judge how safe a place is just by one spot in the map. You don't know what disasters are around, what kind of living creatures can be on the other side, or what the oasis you see is made of.. Even if you explore it, there's still a long way to go. So never, ever in your life think that you know somebody. You're just on one spot in their maps, not close enough to reach their hearts or minds, until you explore it with all your might"  Mikaela said something like that.

"Faye? Hello?" Seth is waving his hands in front of my eyes, and I shook off my thoughts to come back to reality. When I see him his eyes are the shape of a half moon, smiling until it reaches his eyes. It was a pure and beautiful smile, that can bring a smile on another person's face.

"Sorry Seth, I was just thinking" I said.

"It's okay. By the way, I want to say sorry for just now" he said.

That was unexpected, but I don't really want to get to know him better. "it's fine" I replied.

"Okay. You're walking to dinner right? Lets walk together, I can give you an explanation" he said.

Luke's description of Seth isn't the best, he said Seth will approach me and be nice, but he will get me to do bad things once he becomes a friend. He's a person with bad habits, Luke said. 

"You don't have to explain, its fine" I said in reply. Stupid me, like that will fix anything.

"hmm, okay" he said "We can still walk together right? I want to pay for the discomfort I caused" 

Him being all friendly in front of me right now is too different from Luke's description. If Luke told me nothing about Seth, I see myself quickly becoming his friend. Of course Luke is trustworthy, everyone in the house listens to him. But as Mikaela would say, Seth is his own person. I don't know him until I explore with all my might. But really, what is wrong about not wanting to be around a person because of what they did? Sure I don't know him, but what if I don't like what I already know about him?

Very Mikaela to actually dive deep in an issue to its core. But it's all just too much effort for me.

I keep what Luke said in my mind, but I can't say no to Seth right now. It's not like I can say no to how he's smiling, or how the words Mikaela said to me is ringing in the back of my head like an annoying fly that just won't die or go away.

We walked to dinner together, accompanied with friendly questions and very short answers. Still, I barely know anything about Seth, as he manages to make all the questions about me. In a way, he is really scary.

When we reached the dining room, I see Sana bickering with Yuna, who immediately stopped to wave at me. Her smile faded when she sees Seth. "Hope we get to chat again next time" Seth said to me with a smile.