Moving In || l.r.h

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This chapter contains triggering and self harming (sort of) so if you don't like this thing then do not read it or skip it when it starts talking about the truck catching up on her. I'm sorry but it is a big part in this story and I just needed to show this side of her. So yeah if you're okay with it then cool but it will play a big part in this story from now on.

I woke up and looked around. Getting scared when I didn't recognise the room I was in. That's when I remembered. I had given in to Luke. He had come over and I had let him charm me. I curse under my breath before slowly tilting my head to look up at the boy beneath me, trying not to wake him.

Maybe I could slip away, I thought. I looked up at him and gulped. His hair was flat, apart from the parts that had obviously been moved when he moved and were slightly sticking out making him look younger than he was. His features looked so peaceful and cute. His mouth was slightly agape and his head was leaning towards me slightly, his arm wrapped around my shoulder. I shivered when I noticed his grip on me and it instantly tightened.

I froze, thinking I had woke him but his grip loosened after another moment and I went back to taking in his gorgeous sleeping appearance. He was a lot nicer when he was asleep. I finally let my guilty gaze wander down to his chest that I was next to, very close to, in fact I was so close I couldn't get a proper view. Although I could see his defined V-lines going into his boxers that were just hanging out of his basketball shorts. It was hot to say the least.

His other hand was behind his head propping it up slightly and I looked at his defined arm and let a whimper escape my lips. My hand instantly flew from Luke's chest to my mouth and he moaned rolling over to his side so he was facing me now. I swallowed the lump forming in my throat.

What have you done Hollie? I asked myself. This was probably the biggest mistake you had made in your life. You were meant to hate this boy. You weren't meant to let people in, or let people push you around. You were the strong one, the one that didn't show emotion. You couldn't. Not again.

"You're staring." A husky voice snapped you out of your trance making me jump.

"I-I" I couldn't get anything out. I honestly didn't know what I could say to him without either getting closer or completely crushing him. After last night I wanted to go for the first but every bone in my body told me to go for the latter.

"Like what you see?" He said and I could see a small smirk creep onto his face. His eyes were still closed but he was obviously awake.

"Luke..." I started. This couldn't carry on. You couldn't be friends. Milly would tear me to pieces. Why now? Why did he have to do this when you were finally starting to get used the things? Before he started moving in my life was almost normal. Almost.

It was never going to be normal Hollie, you're not normal, you're a freak. He deserves better than you. What are you? Getting in his bed when you hate him? You're confusing him. You're purposely trying to hurt him. That's all you do isn't it? Hurt people. You're worthless. No wonder Milly bullied you. A voice in your head called. I shook violently and Luke's eyes instantly opened, looking at me worried for a moment. I weakly smiled and he smiled back, his blue eyes shining. What was that?

I put my arm back around his hip, the comfort and warmth he was giving me right now soothed me and I needed it after yesterday.

The day before yesterday. The day that changed everything. The day where Milly made you feel like shit, Luke walked away, Calum tried to help, Luke hurt you with that look, Kaela tried to help, Luke showed up. Luke. Recently that's all it came back to. Luke. He was the one that started all of this. The one that made you feel angry, annoyed, upset, depressed, happy, special and confused all in one day. How he did it I would never know but I hated him for it.