R U T H L E S S

•twenty seven - who are you? •

(a/n: So there's a little 'Eternal Sunshine of the spotless mind' inspo from here)

  Oh, honey I'm worried 'bout you
You're too much to lose
You're all that I have
And, honey I'm worried 'bout you
Put yourself in my shoes
You're all that I have so please don't die
Wherever you are tonight  

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Justin

My feet felt very heavy as I dragged myself inside Skye's hospital room after getting showered. I saw here laying on the bed with endless tubes attached to her everywhere and a bandage around her head. The heart monitor was softly beeping in the background. She looked pale as a ghost.

Fifteen whole days. It's been fifteen days since Skye crashed the car with her own to save mom and Ella. The operation was successful; which the doctor considered to be a miracle itself even with the damage that was caused to her head.

She had a seat belt on which kept her from smashing her head entirely. She still got her skull fractured.

I walked to her and sat down beside her on a stool. She hasn't woken up yet. She's been unconscious for fifteen days. The doctor said there was a lot of loss of blood which will result in her taking a while to recover.

But she needs to wake up soon or there are chances of her slipping into a coma.

I sighed and placed my head on her shoulder and shut my eyes, they felt heavy from all the continuous crying.

"Baby, we can't do that. All that serious relationship thing, it's not meant for us. Not because of you or me but because of the life we live. There is no guarantee of our lives Skye, who knows what tomorrow will bring in for us. Imagine if we get into a relationship and something happens to the either of us, think about what the other person will have to go through?" .

"S-So you mean that if something happens to me now, it won't affect you?" 

I thought I was all cried out but the memory of her saying that brimmed my eyes with tears instantly.

"It's affecting me so much Skye" I whispered.

"Please wake up...there's so much I want to tell you, so much that you need to know" I said and my tears dropped down to her shoulder.

I sniffled and looked at her again.

I stood up and kissed her forehead and cheek before going out.

I hadn't gone anywhere from the hospital for all these five days. Mom, Ella and Jayden stay here the whole day and go back at night. Jayden brings my clothes and I get showered here in the hospital itself.

I sat down on the chair outside her room and rested my head against the wall and closed my eyes.

My mind went back to replaying all memories of Skye like it does everytime I close my eyes. I see it all. The whole year that spent with her. 

Her soft voice saying "I'm in love with you" is probably one of the things keeping me alive through this.

I felt myself starting to fall asleep. Every time I sleep now, I wish that when I wake up, I find her awake so I can tell her everything, pour my heart out.

Well, I guess this time God, listened to me, but I had no clue that things might turn out the way they did.

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