So uh
If you didn't know
I hecking adore Markiplier
It takes someone special to make you laugh until you cry or to get you laughing when you feel useless
I feel like a normal fanboy by saying stuff like this
I
I kinda have a crush on him for many reasons
Like
I love him because he is such a great person
If he got into my life by... I dunno...
If we became friends or if he became my dad (hhhh I don't have one but that's honestly okay) or something that would make my life
Not because he's famous
But because he has already saved my life multiple times
I have gotten suicidal more times then I've let on, my apologies.
I don't want to drag anyone down with me.
But when I'm upset I have a habit of curling up in bed and just watching videos
Sometimes it's animations (Mostly JaidenAnimations) and other times it's Markiplier.
Because... They know the struggles of life and aren't afraid of talking about it. Maybe they are, but they are brave enough to overcome it.
...
And hey.
Maybe sometime I can tell my life story, all of it.
Because I was taught bravery and I was taught how to laugh
By a youtuber.
I try to be brave because I want to be like him
Even though we are so very different, I know what at least some things he's been through are like.
And I'm not saying I am the only one who was rescued by him
Because I know I'm not
I'm most certainly not the last either
But I'm one person who was affected positively by him.
I guess what I want to say is
Hey.
Thanks.
And I hope life stays good for you.
And you are loved by so many.
<3
(See"*Anxiety maybe*")
