hey...
if you saw what i posted last night youre probably worried
i dont know why i posted it or why i felt that way all of a sudden
probably my shower i dont know
i just
dysphoria
is a fucking shit
and i honestly still feel like i want to die
i cant though because i know that some people might miss mre
and that kind of tears me up inside
the fact that i could end my own suffering and basically force it on you or that i could stay here for people to stay happier
and im sorry but im getting closer to choosing the first one
im losing this battle and i dont know why and it makes my mind even harder to fight against
