Reaching for the Star ✔

Chapter 22 ★ Hurt

♥ Jessie ♥

"Y-Yes," halos pabulong nyang sagot, pero malinaw ko pa ring narinig.

Yun lang naman ang inaantay ko e... ang ma-confirm ang nakita ko... ang marinig mula sa bibig nya... kahit na kitang kita na ng dalawang mata ko na ang ebidensya. I ran away from him... I can feel my tears flowing down... I even heard him call my name few time but I didn't look back... I just can't stop running...

"Angel let me explain!"

Alam ko sinusundam nya ko, nararamdaman ko at rinig na rinig ko... but I just run even faster... I want to get away from him...I want to be alone... I felt betrayed and played... and it fvcking hurts. I wipe my tears away, nanlalabo na kasi ang paningin ko sa kakaiyak.

Damn!! Why am I crying this hard!

Narating ko na ang parking lot, papasok na sana ko sa loob ng kotse ko ng higitin nya ang braso ko. Hah! suot nya ulet ang nerdy wig nya.

"Angel --" but I cut him. Sarado pa ang isip ko makinig sa kanya. My mind is clouded of nothing but anger towards him.

"Masaya kana ba James? Or AJ... whatever your name is masaya ka na ba na pinag mukha mo kong tanga! You make a fool out of me for like... two three freaking months!!" naiiyak at galit na sigaw ko sakanya.

"It's n--" I cut him again.

"Alam mo ba ang ikinagagalit ko? It is realizing that everything that happened between us are nothing but a complete damn lie! I don't know kung pati ang pangalan mo totoo! Did you even say a Damn truth to me?!" galit na sumbat ko then again my tears just continue to flow like a river.

Do you think I'm overreacting? No! Trust is so important to me. Napaka laking issue sa akin ng salitang TRUST. Because if I trusted you it means you're important to me... it means you have a place in my heart... it means your special.

Do you know how it feels like to be betrayed? I'm telling you now being betrayed feels like sh*t!

"Just let me explain angel... pakinggan mo lang ako please... I didn't mean to lie to you. Hindi ko intensyong pagmukain kang tanga. I really am planning to tell you all about me... the real me. I was just waiting for the right time, naghahanap lang ako ng tamang tyempo." nagmamadaling sabi nya, kita sa mata nya na his desperate para pakinggan ko sya.

But just like what I've just said... Sarado pa ang isip ko para pakinggan sya. I feel nothing but pain and anger at the moment.

"Hindi mo intensyon? But you already did! Niloko mo ko! Pinag muka mo kong tanga! And it freakin hurts! It hurts so much James. You said you're waiting for the right time? When is that? na sayo lahat ng oras mo! We were like glued to each other ng mahigit dalawang buwan. All you have to do is tell me about it! But no! You choose to still keep it a secret. Bakit hah!? Are you afraid na ipagsabi ko ang sikreto mo? That only mean one thing...you didn't trust me enough!" my halong sarkastikong himutok ko sa kanya.

Tinalikuran ko na sya at sumakay sa kotse ko. He banged his fist on my window, asking me to open it and hear him out. But I just ignored him and drive my car to get away from that place... from him. I want to be alone and think.

It's a good thing na class hour pa kaya walang gaano tao sa parking lot. I'm sure wala sila idea kung ano pinag awayan namin.

Si AJ at James ay iisa. Tumulo na naman ang luha ko. Every time I remember his answer. I don't know why but I just can't stop my tears from falling.

Being shock was understatement when I saw, how James remove his wig and throw it on the floor. He's not wearing his nerdy glasses at that moment. That's why in just a second I saw AJ's face... but he doesn't seem to notice me.