Eleanor
I lay down on my bed, the covers tangled around my body, staring at my right side, poking it, tears springing to my eyes as no feeling comes through. I jab harder, sticking my finger nail right into my skin, screaming as no pain, no feeling comes through. I push harder, drawing blood, screaming into my pillow as the feeling remains separated from me. A sob racks my body. I turn over and look at my bedside table, seeing some tweezers. I reach for them, wrapping my fingers around the petite object. I stroke my finger up and down it before positioning it above my right hip, stabbing it down, ripping my flesh apart, blood trickling down, staining my bed sheets. I wail in frustration, tears falling down my face at rapid speed as I start stabbing randomly at my right side, begging some sort of feeling to arise, some sort of pain or sense. Nothing comes. I howl, looking down at my body. There's blood flowing from around thirty different punctures on my hip and waist, flowing down my bare skin, soaking my covers with the red liquid, marking its territory. A small smile meets my lips as I lay my head on my pillow, letting my eyes close gently as I drift off into a content sleep.
***
Louis
"Eleanor, babe, I brought dinner," I call out, as I enter Eleanor's house with the spare key from under the plant pot, closing the door behind me.
I grip tightly onto the Chinese take out bag, looking around the silent house frowning. I walk up the stairs and stride towards her room, opening the door slightly. I smile when I see Eleanor in her bed, sleeping peacefully, a small smile on her face. I walk towards her, stroking her hair gently
"Ellie, I brought some dinner," I whisper gently
My eyes trail down to the covers that are roughly pulled over her, a spot of red catching my eye, making me drop the Chinese
I frown, edging the covers back further, a huge red spot making my heart beat even faster.
"Louis?" Eleanor mumbles, squinting at me
I rip the covers off her, my eyes growing the size of saucers when the scene before me comes into focus. Eleanor is laying in her underwear, blood covering her bed sheets. I turn my eyes to her stunning body, taking in the dried blood on her right side, the small punctures, some still oozing blood
She registers what just happened, her mouth parting slightly, looking up at me,
"Louis..." she whispers
"Why did you do this?" I choke out, "Why...why would you hurt yourself?"
A sob escapes her lips as her face crumples, her body shaking with cries. I crawl across the bed, wrapping my arm around her, pulling her into my chest, staring wide eyed at the blood,
"I wanted to feel something," she cries
I shake my head, "No El," I whisper, "Not like this,"
"I wanted to feel Louis," she repeats, wails escaping her lips, "I'm sorry....I'm sorry,"
She repeats the words, her sobs growing louder as I hold her to me,
"Eleanor," I whisper, "Eleanor,"
"Yeah?" she stutters, between sobs,
"Please..." I bite my lip, trying to stop the tears from falling down my own cheeks,
"Please don't hurt yourself,"
"I want to feel Louis," she wails,
"Please," I beg her, "Please don't do this to yourself,"
"I need to feel," she wails, trying to push me away, reaching for the tweezers, getting hysterical
"Eleanor!" I scream, grabbing her and holding her against me, gripping her wrists in my hands,
"I NEED TO FEEL SOMETHING PLEASE" she cries in hysteria
"Eleanor, Eleanor stop please!" I yell, tears rolling down my cheeks
"NO" she sobs, high pitched, "LET ME FEEL,"
She eventually gives up trying to get away from me and collapses onto the bed, curling her left leg into her chest, wrapping her left arm around herself, gently sobbing
"I'm sorry," I mumble, stroking her hair, "I am so so sorry,"
***
I finish wrapping the bandage around Eleanor's torso, grabbing the scissors and cutting it, using medical tape to secure it down before returning the first aid kit to the kitchen cupboard
"Ellie babe?" I speak softly to my girlfriend who is sitting on the couch, staring at her bandaged body
She glances up at me, awaiting me speak,
"If you want, you could stay at my house for the next few nights," I offer her, because to be totally honest, here is no way in hell I want her to be alone after what just happened, "My dad had to go away for work so the rest of my family decided to make a holiday out of it, so they're gone for the rest of the week,"
"Why didn't you go?" she questions
"I wanted to stay here and catch up on some school stuff," I tell her, "Do you want to?"
She nods, crawling across the couch to me and gently sitting on my lap, leaning her head against my chest. I stroke her hair, kissing the top of her head gently,
"I love you Louis," she whispers, clinging onto my shirt,
"I love you too Ellie,"
"I'm sorry Lou," she mumbles, resting her head in the crook of my neck,
"For what?" I ask, surprised
"For being so complicated," she sighs
"Eleanor?" I whisper, gently tilting her chin so she's looking at me,
"Mm?"
"Shut up, please,"
She laughs as I lean in and kiss her gently
Author's Note
Hiya petals x
Okay so I know I haven't updated in a while but I have been uber busy with family coming down and stuff and ugh :o I am going away tomorrow until Sunday so I won't have wifi, so idk when the next update will be, but I have decided the update day for this book will be Sunday, so idk if I will update this Sunday, probably not but I will try :) Make sure you comment and vote etc.
Love you petals,
Niamh xx
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