My Love

Some Things Are Better Not Heard

Jace POV

"Don't you think you should ask some questions before jumping to conclusions?" Magnus' words echoed in my head as I waited in the library of his house.

Magnus wasn't in the room with me and I was beginning to wonder if he was coming back for me when the door opened. The warlock opened the door and walked in. He stared at me for a few moments before he walked over and looked me in the eye.

"Well Herondale, I suppose I owe you some answers" he said, Magnus drawled the words with a trace if an accent that I didn't recognize.

"Yeah you do. What the hell?! What the actual hell?! You injected yourself with mundane blood! Mundane blood! What the hell makes someone do that?! What makes someone who seems stable enough do that?! What the actual hell, Magnus?! What's up?!" I questioned in one breath.

"Warlocks typically have 50% demon blood and 50% mundane blood-" he was cut off by my interruption.

"What does that have anything to do with this?" I asked, exasperated

"If you would let me finish you would know. My blood is comprised of 90% demon blood, 10% mundane blood. I inject myself with mundane blood to balance out my bloodstream some" he explained. Oh

"Why the angel blood?" I asked.

"That is to keep my power in check. Since I have too much demon blood my power tends to be more forceful than intended. The angel blood helps me prevent my power from going overboard on accident. We can't just take a life back, can we?" Magnus told me.

I shook my head. "How come you are able to have a parabatai if your blood has more demon in it than mundane?" I asked.

Magnus shrugged. "I just can"

Alec POV

I ran my fingers through Magnus' feathers to calm myself. I had no idea why my anxiety level was high but I knew Magnus could sense my discomfort. Magnus was doing paperwork in his home office-which doubled as his ingredient storage and potion making room-and I was close to a panic attack for no reason that I could think of. I've had a bad feeling and it only strengthened as the day progressed. And now I was ready pass out from the stress.

"What is wrong Alexander? You seem on edge" Magnus asked, turning his neck so he could look me in the eye.

"I dunno. But I'm freaking out and I have no idea what is wrong but j just have a bad feeling about something" I told him.

"Well, is anything wrong at work?" He asked.

"No. Everything is fine at work. Maybe that's the problem" I responded.

"Everything being good is why you are in the verge of an anxiety attack?" Magnus questioned.

"Maybe. For the last few months I've been in hell, maybe I'm just not used to not having to worry. When you were gone I had no escape; I couldn't sleep it off, I could not fight it off I couldn't even box off that awful feeling. I tried but it didn't work" I replied.

"I know that you tried" Magnus said, running his hand down my muscular arm.

"I'm being serious" I exclaimed.

"Alec darling there is nothing for you to be worried about. For now everything is running smoothly so just relax. I have a few more papers to do and then I can help you relax" Magnus said, with a sinister lick to his bottom lip and a seductive grin.

"Okay" I swallowed the lump that was accumulating in my throat.

"Give me five minutes and I'm all yours love"Magnus whispered in my ear, sending shivers down my spine.