My Love

Grieving

Alec POV

I couldn't stop sobbing. He's gone. He's really gone. I always thought that he'd have to watch me die. I always thought he'd have to watch me die, not the other way around. I never would've imagined having to be alive while my love isn't with me.

•Burnt from the inside out.
• Bone crushing impact.
• Failed lungs.
• Skull fracture.
• All ribs broken.
• Dying organs
• No brain activity
• Slowly failing heart
• Almost no pulse

The medical term for that is dead.

Satan couldn't even take him out of Dudiel. To move Magnus would be to speed up his death.

It had been a week since i had known my love was dead. I spent my days curled up in our, I mean in my bed. No one could console me. I cried day and night, mourning for my love. It was painful to even know that I couldn't see him. Not even for a goodbye.

Magnus' father had left the instructions to kill him to me, but I had asked him to take them back. No one else needed to die. No one needed to die.

Especially not my Magnus.

"Alec please come out. This isn't healthy. Remember, Magnus said that he if couldn't be there for you, to let us be there for you" Isabelle said through the door.

"Well he isn't alive anymore to make sure I follow through with that" I replied, my voice breaking as I processed my own words.

"Please, Alec. He wouldn't want you to give up for your life" Izzy said.

I got up off the bed and opened the door. A new wave of sadness washed over me and fresh tears filled my eyes.

"He's gone Iz. He's actually gone. What am I going to do Iz? Magnus, my Magnus is actually gone. How could this happen? To me? To him? I just wanted to be happy" I sobbed. I fell into my little sister's embrace as I sobbed like a baby.

"I dunno why this happened Allie. Neither of you deserve this. But we'll be here for you,please don't push us away" Isabelle replied, rubbing soothing circles, that didn't do anything to soothe me, on my back.

"Iz I had so many plans for our life. Three beautiful children running around the loft, Magnus and I struggling to wrangle all of the kids in for bed. Magnus teaching our daughter how to do makeup. I had it all planned Iz. He's not here anymore" I gushed, tears flowing freely down my face.

"Alec, the world works in strange, and often unfair ways. You didn't deserve this" Isabelle replied. "Come on Alec, let's get you some food"

"I'm not hungry" I mumbled.

"Please Alec. Don't do this. You need to live" Isabelle begged.

"Why? He didn't get to live. I want to join him" I said.

"Please Alec, don't say that. I know it's hard for you, it's hard for me too, but he'd want you to live" Isabelle said.

"HE WOULD'VE WANTED TO LIVE" I screamed, another wave of anger and sadness overcame me. The painted expression on Izzy's face, had me calming down. "I'm sorry Iz, it's just that"

"It's okay Alec, you're grieving. I understand. Just please eat something" Isabelle replied.

"Okay" I said and she lead me to the kitchen.

While Iz was cooking -something I was deathly afraid of but couldn't find the heart to tell her to stop - someone knocked on my door. I was about to get up , when she shooed my back into my seat and said she take care of it.