"A Journey Through The Eyes of A Poet"

Reflection Of A Broken Soul

Time is fleeting

soul retreating

i find my heart

is broken in pieces

on the floor

my mind is sore

from too much thinking

slowly sinking

broken promises

to everyone, even myself.

I try so hard

to keep my eyes open

but the tears make it hard stay awake

I want to sleep

until tomorrow,

i want to sleep away yesterday.

Can we stop,

can we please pray?

To no God inparticular

I just wish I could stop these thoughts

these thoughts of terror

how they shred my inner most demons

and yet, they piece together a deeper meaning

a distant screaming

I walked this earth long before I knew heartache.

the heartache of heartbreak

and still the earth quakes

still moving,

still turning

with me on it.

I am not afraid to be alone

and yet, when I'm alone all I can do is stare at my phone

the glowing screen of pixelated names

and faces I will never see,

never see standing

standing right in front of me.

My reflection

My own deflection

I take apart this deeply seeded thought inflection.

where was my mind

I lost it so long ago.

When I lost a part of what I once was

I gather these thoughts

these thoughts of yesteryear

in hopes,

Hopes that you'll still be here.

You've left but I never stop to think of you.

You're a ghost of my past

and you haunt me, and I swear it's going to be the last.

but these memories break my shell like a too-soft egg.

Tomorrow is just yesterday's promise of a better future.

and of course, I'll say "I'm awake"

but am I awake? or am I only merely walking through this life on autopilot?

Where am I,

am I a figment of my own imagination?

What am I to do,

since I've been lost

on this island,

I've forgotten who I am.

Can I find myself again?