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20: Broken Hearts Club

I wanted to just get a glass of water cause I felt really dehydrated for some reason when I passed by the living room and saw Nara passed out asleep.

I completely forgot that I was thirsty and I went to her and sat beside her body on the couch and then she felt the movement and she woke up so I said, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to wake you."

"No it's okay, I should be heading off to the bedroom, I should be sleeping there, Irene's probably looking for me", she said.

"No, stay", I said and she nodded then she sat beside me and she leaned her head on my shoulder and I breathed out and I said, "I used to think I would never want a girl like you in my life."

"You annoyed me in the very beginning cause I just didn't see the need for you to be around me, I saw you as an annoying leech on my back", I said and she just laughed and said, "Are you just gonna lecture me about the pros and cons of me staying or leaving?"

I shook my head and said, "I'm way past that but I did consider telling you that maybe when they first decided to take you in I was really just honestly undecided."

"Well that's nice to hear that I'm warming up to you", she said and I tried to seem cool by saying, "Don't take it so lightly sweetie, I might change my mind."

"Will you?", she said as she turned around and our faces were inches apart and she stared into my eyes and I couldn't help but blush and she chuckled.

"You know, I can see you blushing even if the lights are dim", she said as she booped my nose catching me by surprise.

She was about to turn around when I said, "I actually wanted to tell you something."

She stopped and looked at me again and she said, "Go on, I'm listening."

"I actually don't know how to say it better, I know you're very keen with your language but pardon my french cause", I said as I took a deep sigh hoping I don't mess up and she'll still talk to me.

"I like you Nara", I said but that's not what was supposed to come out so I said, "No, I fucking love you."

Her eyes widened and she said, "Y-yoongi I-."

"Ever since you almost tripped down the stairs and I caught you, I can't stop thinking about you, every night, every day", I said and she just looked blank.

"When you opened up to me about your past as if you could talk to me like a person touched me the most cause the boys can never do that with me", I said and she smiled and I knew she was going to tell me, no,

I just had a good feeling she was going to tell me that she didn't see me that way so I immediately said before she could say anything, "I know you don't feel the same but I just needed to let that out of my chest cause then I don't think I'll be breathe for another second if I don't tell you when I see you around and-."

I was about to say more out of sheer panic when she placed her finger on my mouth and she just laughed, "Just shut up and kiss me."

My eyes widened and I pulled her by the waist and I pulled her into a passionate kiss and she kissed back and I held her tight as she held me tight too.

Then she kissed me even more until I fell back into the couch as she kissed me more and she was now on top of me and I stopped her and said, "Woah no need to get so aggressive."

She chuckled and laid beside me because there was enough space and she said, "I just got a little excited cause I never thought guys would look at me that way cause I'm weird."

"What?! Seriously, I know you're weird but you're the good kind of weird trust me, it's actually the case  when it comes to you, where weird is actually good", I said and she smiled and yawned and then said, "I'm sleepy."

"You know what, I like a little sweetness in my life so It's nice to have some Suga", she said and I laughed while saying, "That's cheesy."

"You like it, admit it.", she said and I chuckled and said, "Yes."

*pretend this is Yoongi and Nara*

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I watched as they kissed and my heart shattered to pieces. Here I am falling in love again only to see that the person I love doesn't love me.

Only to suffer the same thing I suffered before. I can't believe I have to suffer the same fate as I did before. Loving a girl who I thought could love me back.

I'm so sick and tired of trying to find someone who'll love me as much as I love them.

Maybe If I just talked to her, things could've been way different. Maybe it could be that way but now I'm too fucking late.

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I was walking to the kitchen when I saw Jin looking at a direction. I looked at where he was looking and saw that he was looking at Yoongi kissing.

Nara.

My heart dropped and just when I thought I wanted to make a move on her. Yoongi was already five steps ahead. Heck, maybe even a kilometer ahead. I felt anger build in me so I decided to just go back to my room and rethink everything but on the way, I saw Lisa and she was probably going to the kitchen to get something but I stopped her and pushed her onto a wall and I kissed her roughly but she didn't kiss back instead she pushed me away and said, "Taehyung, I'm not just someone you can have sex with to satisfy what couldn't be yours."

"I know what you saw and I know how you feel and don't get me wrong, I don't like you anymore but there are just some things you can't have", she said.

"Even if you try so hard, if it's really not meant to be then it won't work", She said and she just laughed in disappointment and I said, "You mean us?"

"Taehyung, that's a chapter in my life I already flipped through, I don't intend to go back to it", she said and she left me dumbfounded.

I don't know what to do.

I really don't.