I haven't been taking care of myself like I should.I stay up late, I eat horribly, I quit dance, I smoke and drink. I do shit that isn't good for me.
But I weirdly don't care. I don't care if I lied to my parents about smoking. I don't care if I don't take care of myself.
But I hate the fact that I don't care.
I hate it.But I don't know how to change.
I don't know how to be better for myself.I sit and wallow in self pity and dream about a whole other life I want to live.
So why don't I live it?
Why don't I go chase my dreams and live the life I want?
I feel restricted, I feel held down by my family and my anxiety that I restrict myself.
My heart is conflicted...I don't know which path to take. I'm at a crossroads.
And I don't know whether to go right or left. But I guess the unknowns is what makes life, life.
We don't know what tomorrow holds.
But that unknown is what makes people hide away and are too afriad to live.I think the unknowns should encourage us to live...
Let the scariness of the world push us to walk through it and conquer it.
I hope I realize this someday.
I hope I live a life full of unknowns so I can live a life I've always dreamed of...
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Dreamland
PoetryDreamland: the only place I can truly be myself, which is something I'm not sure I know how to be in reality