Dreamland

i wish

The feeling of emptiness surrounds me.

The cold of your finger tips still haunts me.

The dark clouds of your empty words are blowing in.

Finding a way into the cracks I tried to hide from you.

Breaking me apart inch by inch crawling into my soul and never letting me escape you.

Finding the weak spot that always makes me forgive you.

Always making me look the other way.

How I'm different but the same.

You truly never left, did you?

I can still hear your voice in the back of my head telling me to stay.

How I wish I didn't.

But how I wish I did.

I'll never know the true meaning of love.

Because of your broken promises and tainted lies.

You lied.

Why did I believe you?

When you said you wanted me.

But why didn't you show me?

I wish I didn't still love you.

I wish I didn't still care for you.

I wish our world was different.

Where we never crossed paths.

Where I never fell in love with you.

When I was a happy, full of life girl.

Oh how I wish.